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well...i dont even know where to start.
this weekend was nuts. amanda had fun...i can say that haha. im becomin really close with lisa n ash, which im happy about. lisa deffinately keeps me motivated to go work out pretty much every day...n havin her as a roomie makes me focus on my work cause someone else has to too. and ash is great. the 2 of us have bonded a bit heh...she makes me laugh. lisa too...its ridiculous. theyre awesome. im really glad im gettin to know them so well. the whole group of them are fun...borne is a sweetheart...lisas boyfriend mike is pretty fun. heh. its nice to be brought into a group, especially one thats as fun as this one.
i havnt been seein as much of courtney n priya n jen though...which im kind of upset about. movie night fell through...i didnt go to the olive garden with them cause i didnt think i was really wanted by rupal's friends...i dunno. theres not much i can do about it i guess. a lot of it is on me...i know it is. but still....we're all goin home this weekend...which is good cause i need to go home i think. i hope priya n court n jen n i can all hang out sometime soon...go into the city or at least grabbin dinner all together again. priya n court have been eatin dinner in a lot lately...but i have a huge meal plan to use so i try to go n use it as much as i can. no biggie again...i just feel like we're seperatin this semester, n it kind of sucks. im worried about next year. i dont know whats gunna happen with the rooming situation. jen said she might room with rachel again...i dont want her to feel obligated to room with me. its not an obligation. i really wanted it to work, but whatever. its not up to me...priya might be rooming with her sister n court might go with her....which leaves amanda...uhm...where?? good question. im gunna have to talk to lisa n see what shes doin next year in case the original plan doesnt work out...which unfortunately...its lookin like it may not. its still early, but the way things seemed tonight...i dunno. im tryin not to let it get to me, but this is me we're talking about. its gunna get to me.
my ups and downs have been crazy lately. i really had a fun weekend this weekend...but i get down soooooooo incredibly easily its ridiculous. n when i get down, i have trouble gettin back up again. it sucks. i dont like it. 2 people arent talkin to me right now...one i understand why. i tried again...but theres nothing i can do. i hafta wait for him to be ready to talk to me. the other...whatever. i dont know what the hell i did but hes just not talking to me, and i dont feel like dealin with the bull. ....i actually dont feel much of anything right now.
been workin like a mad woman for school, as i should be cause bein a student is my job right now. its exhausting though...and amanda didnt sleep again last night. woke up scared like 4 times...i dont know whats going on! WHY WONT IT ALL JUST STOP?!?!?
on a brighter note...uhm....wait no im not ready for the brighter note yet.
guess whos knee swelled up again today? and whos back hurts like hell? whos hip is popping??....yea. yea its me. yet another thing to smile about right?
still single. hmmm
brighter note? amanda doesnt have one for this entry. im down...im real down...but tomorrow is another day, and hopefully, ill be up for it. goodnight
this weekend was nuts. amanda had fun...i can say that haha. im becomin really close with lisa n ash, which im happy about. lisa deffinately keeps me motivated to go work out pretty much every day...n havin her as a roomie makes me focus on my work cause someone else has to too. and ash is great. the 2 of us have bonded a bit heh...she makes me laugh. lisa too...its ridiculous. theyre awesome. im really glad im gettin to know them so well. the whole group of them are fun...borne is a sweetheart...lisas boyfriend mike is pretty fun. heh. its nice to be brought into a group, especially one thats as fun as this one.
i havnt been seein as much of courtney n priya n jen though...which im kind of upset about. movie night fell through...i didnt go to the olive garden with them cause i didnt think i was really wanted by rupal's friends...i dunno. theres not much i can do about it i guess. a lot of it is on me...i know it is. but still....we're all goin home this weekend...which is good cause i need to go home i think. i hope priya n court n jen n i can all hang out sometime soon...go into the city or at least grabbin dinner all together again. priya n court have been eatin dinner in a lot lately...but i have a huge meal plan to use so i try to go n use it as much as i can. no biggie again...i just feel like we're seperatin this semester, n it kind of sucks. im worried about next year. i dont know whats gunna happen with the rooming situation. jen said she might room with rachel again...i dont want her to feel obligated to room with me. its not an obligation. i really wanted it to work, but whatever. its not up to me...priya might be rooming with her sister n court might go with her....which leaves amanda...uhm...where?? good question. im gunna have to talk to lisa n see what shes doin next year in case the original plan doesnt work out...which unfortunately...its lookin like it may not. its still early, but the way things seemed tonight...i dunno. im tryin not to let it get to me, but this is me we're talking about. its gunna get to me.
my ups and downs have been crazy lately. i really had a fun weekend this weekend...but i get down soooooooo incredibly easily its ridiculous. n when i get down, i have trouble gettin back up again. it sucks. i dont like it. 2 people arent talkin to me right now...one i understand why. i tried again...but theres nothing i can do. i hafta wait for him to be ready to talk to me. the other...whatever. i dont know what the hell i did but hes just not talking to me, and i dont feel like dealin with the bull. ....i actually dont feel much of anything right now.
been workin like a mad woman for school, as i should be cause bein a student is my job right now. its exhausting though...and amanda didnt sleep again last night. woke up scared like 4 times...i dont know whats going on! WHY WONT IT ALL JUST STOP?!?!?
on a brighter note...uhm....wait no im not ready for the brighter note yet.
guess whos knee swelled up again today? and whos back hurts like hell? whos hip is popping??....yea. yea its me. yet another thing to smile about right?
still single. hmmm
brighter note? amanda doesnt have one for this entry. im down...im real down...but tomorrow is another day, and hopefully, ill be up for it. goodnight