A day of Ecstacy.... Oh no wait, couldn't find that:)
So yesterday started off tiring enough, I woke up on Ivan's couch around five in the morning, left there and came home, in just enough time to write my mom a note asking to go out and stay the night, which i gave her right befroe i fell asleep, well i woke back up around 9, and showerd then went to Ryan's, I got there around 10:45, he was still asleep, so we were able to leave around i think 11:15 or something, and headed out to Daphne Alabama to see Bryan.
On the way there we stopped at a place to pick up some food, and at the gas station there were this group of like 7 y/o all in camo, and one had a belt of shotgun shells, it was so scary, i mean i am all for guns and shit, but 7 Y/O's!?!?!? OMG!!!!!!!!!!
Then when we got there we went to the mall in Mobile which was fun but Ryan and I had smoe drama, I was being rude to Bryan, because I don't like him!!!!!!!!, Ryan knew this and yet asked me to take him there, so Ryan started treating me like shit, and then i was like screw you, an just went off by myself, he tried to talk to me but i was just so pissed and depressed becasue i had fucked up again, so i just walked off and then i found out the Ryan was missing so I went looking and ended up in Victoria's Secrets where i bought some make up.
Then i saw him and i tried to walk away because i was really afraid i would start crying, and he caught up with me, he gave me this poem that he wrote about me a long time ago, it was really nice, it made me want to cry smoe more but i didn't it was realyl the best thing anyone had ever said to me, or wrote as teh case may be.
Well we went to another mall, to see the movies, no good ones, so we went to a movie place, all were like two hours away, so we went to a coffee place and sat for a little, then we dropped Bryan off, and went back to Niceville where we ended u taking some Oxy and goign to the beach, Rosier last his keys and got sick as did most of the rest of us, all i think except ryan threw up, i got left by myself because there was miscommuntication between Ryan and myself, which i blame on me, but he came back like 45 minutes later, so all was cool, i did cry but that was just me, not him. well then him and i drove around for like 5 hours, and had a really long and long dicussion and we came to the conclusion that he truly does care alot about me more than anyone else, and that i was like his little brother and that made me so extremely happy, and then i dropped him off and i drove home.
That was basically my day, i loved spending time with ryan, he truly is the only person that makes me feel comfprtable and happy, i love him to death as my big brother, and i really hope we can hang otu just him and i and he can teach me all the things about how i should be and all, that would be so great like a dream come true, because even though it may sound stupid, i have always wished for a big brother.
On the way there we stopped at a place to pick up some food, and at the gas station there were this group of like 7 y/o all in camo, and one had a belt of shotgun shells, it was so scary, i mean i am all for guns and shit, but 7 Y/O's!?!?!? OMG!!!!!!!!!!
Then when we got there we went to the mall in Mobile which was fun but Ryan and I had smoe drama, I was being rude to Bryan, because I don't like him!!!!!!!!, Ryan knew this and yet asked me to take him there, so Ryan started treating me like shit, and then i was like screw you, an just went off by myself, he tried to talk to me but i was just so pissed and depressed becasue i had fucked up again, so i just walked off and then i found out the Ryan was missing so I went looking and ended up in Victoria's Secrets where i bought some make up.
Then i saw him and i tried to walk away because i was really afraid i would start crying, and he caught up with me, he gave me this poem that he wrote about me a long time ago, it was really nice, it made me want to cry smoe more but i didn't it was realyl the best thing anyone had ever said to me, or wrote as teh case may be.
Well we went to another mall, to see the movies, no good ones, so we went to a movie place, all were like two hours away, so we went to a coffee place and sat for a little, then we dropped Bryan off, and went back to Niceville where we ended u taking some Oxy and goign to the beach, Rosier last his keys and got sick as did most of the rest of us, all i think except ryan threw up, i got left by myself because there was miscommuntication between Ryan and myself, which i blame on me, but he came back like 45 minutes later, so all was cool, i did cry but that was just me, not him. well then him and i drove around for like 5 hours, and had a really long and long dicussion and we came to the conclusion that he truly does care alot about me more than anyone else, and that i was like his little brother and that made me so extremely happy, and then i dropped him off and i drove home.
That was basically my day, i loved spending time with ryan, he truly is the only person that makes me feel comfprtable and happy, i love him to death as my big brother, and i really hope we can hang otu just him and i and he can teach me all the things about how i should be and all, that would be so great like a dream come true, because even though it may sound stupid, i have always wished for a big brother.