Depression

[happybuddha]

I am so god damned depressed right now and i don't know why, I was at this party this weekend with ryan and all of those feelings which i thought i were over just came flooding back, and now i am left alone without anyone, I need a really hot boy friend bad, I know it is bad to say a really hot boy friend because looks aren't everything right? right, but i am very vain as of recent and i reallly do want a very attractive boyfriend and someone whom is very smart and nice and kind and very compassionate. I truly NEED a boyfriend, i want one but i truly need one, it will help me get over ryan and hopefully pull me out of this depression, because i have been so depressed for some reason and i think it is because i have no one to call my own, no onw to hold and no one to cuddle with. Please if there is anyone in this area that wants a b/f drop me a line, i need one so bad, i just need someone so bad.
Aaron