fading friendships....

[happybuddha]

Mine and ryan's friendship has been on the rocks lately, we have been having problems for the past month. It really hurts when i can't go and see my best friend like i used to, I loved him, and still do, but more so he is also my best friend, his friendship means more to me than anything right now. I really thought we were freinds again, i thougth we were good friends again. and everytime i say something questioning our friendship he gets mad, so it really makes me think that he is truly my good friend, my best friend, yet yesterday when we had planned to go out and hang, with me picking him up at 10 he just up and left with someone else, so when i drove all the way there he wasn't there, i understand that he doesn't like hanging with me, and that hwe knows so many more people that he would rather see than me, but i just thought he could have called or somthing so i wouldn't have driven all the way out there. I would of loved it if he called and just said like hey, something came up i can't go with you, but would like to go hang with us? Like i read he went to go see Swimfan, i really want to see that movie but he didn't even thinmk about me when he just ditched me it hurts to say but it see,s everyone else is more important than me, when he and i make plans he always takes the liberty to change them or even cancelling them, yet when he plans things with others he completely can't change any part of them, it just kinda hurts sometimes, I just need a real answer, a real answer to what i am to him. But i still want him to come to my b-day thing whatever it is, even if it is just him and i hanging out seeing a movie, i jsut want to finally see him and hang with him again, for the first time in a while, so just pelase ryan answer me, and call my cell 582-6325 and tell me what we can do next weekend plase it would really mean alot if we could do something.
Luv ya Ryan,
Aaron