your voice spoke to me so clearly.

[happy_ghost]

i don't even know what to write.
life is strange.
so, it's update time on live journal.
why do i still keep this?
i guess because it's gone on for so long.
it's only right.
it's my memory.
and oh, so much memory.
and so much missing time.
so update.
i have fallen in love.
real, true love.
none of that strange bullshit.
mr. benjamin thomas mcrill.
i love him.
and we've been through some fuzzy patches.
through fun trips.
hawaii.
endless hours on airplanes.
and made phoenix my home.
then seperate.
seperate and not alone.
i thought it'd tear us apart.
and for a second, it did.
but he came back.
and i saw him.
it was beautiful.
and now here we are.
in limbo.
his possibility of south south of the border.
my being stuck in cowboy country.
(midland, texas)
but we'll see.
friends.
me and dominique.
i don't know what goes on there.
we've stopped talking.
forever now?
i don't know.
we never know.
the boys.
oh, my boys.
i miss them.
vern.
we grew close.
fj, whiskey, richard.
oh how i miss them.
and everyone else, too.
but now here i am.
working.
starting my english study.
i want to be a writer.
i aspire to write.
i will write a book.
and everyone will read it.
and that is that.

♥meon.