baby, i'm bad news. i'm just bad news, bad news, bad news.

[happy_ghost]

sooo. i'm a bitch.
i fuck everything up.
and this isn't just another boo-hoo poor me thing.
i never realized it as much as i do now.
my yane even pointed it out.
it's not that i don't like him.
cause God knows i do.
but honest, the second i find one thing wrong everything else starts coming out.
everything starts bothering me.
and this whole brandon thing.
i dunno if it's just some stab at me trying to find an excuse.
maybe it is.
and then maybe it's just the thing that i've been trying to hide since for like forever he's just been my FRIEND.
and then again, maybe i just can't stand him being with someone else.
but i can't tell him.
i can't fuck brandon up.
i can't fuck jandro up.
but i sure as fucking shit can fuck myself up.
because that's gonna happen either way.
but brandon likes some girl.
let him be happy.
we'll see how i feel later.
jandro...well, jandro likes me.
and i dunno what's gonna happen with that.
but fucking shit.
i hate myself.
i am trying to break your heart. but still i'd be lying if i said it wasn't easy. i am trying to break your heart.