Gashiyeon - Chapter 5 [Part 2]
Two updates in a row~ ^^ Hopefully it'll make up for it if I don't get a chance to work on translating for too long next week. Anyways enjoy!
Written by: maio
Translated by: happy_colour
“You scare me, really…I’m even scared of the fact that my own memories keep coming back to you…So if you change too…What am I supposed to do…”
Despite the seriousness, I found had always found my body wracked with carnal desire in a situation like this.
My voice grows soft, and the bottom of heart starts to vibrate and swell in anticipation. I’d been trained well.
I was able to get an erection at just the thought of being smacked around by his rough hands, despite being filled with dread at what might come afterwards.
I cupped my hands gently around his cheek. His small face changed dramatically as soon as my flesh made contact with his.
“Please hold me…Just once. Please just hold me… It’s not like I’m expecting a kiss like in the old days, or anything…”
“…”
“My heart’s so cold that I think I might die…”
“….”
He finally took me into his arms. I clung on to him as if my life depended on it, after I had managed to take a hold of him, using my helplessness as a weapon.
I pressed my flesh closer to his in an attempt to communicate my sadness through our skin.
Even though he made no movement in response, I was thankful that he at least didn’t push me away. I let out a sound that was neither quite a sob nor a sigh into the base of this neck.
I had missed every single bit of Yunho, right down to each and every cell. My body let out a cry of joy.
I could feel that he at least loved me from the beat of his heart against mine.
Jung Yunho was struggling desperately, never to fall in that kind of persistent love, ever again.
I slyly wound my free arm up his back like a snake and wrapped it firmly around his strong neck. My crimson lips that had been travelling closer to him, suddenly stopped underneath his chin.
“What can I do…now that you’re not mine anymore…How could I…now…What right do I have…sob…”
Look at me…Look at my pretty face. Look at the face that made you crazy for me way back when we were young.
Keep me in your eyes. From there, I want to bloom out gracefully. Please do it for me.
“I won’t do it again…I’ll be really good from now on…”
I place a kiss on those sweet, succulent lips. The breath escaping from the slight part between them flowed into my mouth.
If just his breath was this hot, I wondered how the deep caverns of his mouth might feel...
I pulled his neck towards me a second time, and pressed my lips even more firmly onto his, opening my mouth in an attempt to swallow him whole.
I closed my eyes. And I moved my lips sensually. But I couldn’t feel anything through his mouth that was clamped shut.
I opened my eyes to find his head turned to the side. I approached him again, but he avoided me cruelly. I chased after the fleeing pair of lips
To the right, to the left….
“Urgh.”
Ah, I finally latched on to him. No, I bit him.
I couldn’t suppress the desire that had filled me right up to the top of my head at the brief moment of contact with that soft flesh. .
Yunho’s lip burst along with a small sound. That crimson elixir of life quenched my unbearable thirst.
“Stop it.”
I got pushed away again, losing my grip on his firm neck and separated from his soft lips.
He wiped at mouth that had been lathered with saliva, with the back of his hand, as if for me to see. But even that was as blindingly beautiful as a scene in a movie.
I told you to stop making me go crazy….
I approached him again, attracted like a magnet.
This time, I grabbed his face firmly enough that he would not be able to easily escape my grasp and sucked at his tightly closed lips noisily.
I lapped at the area around his mouth like a dog. I indulged myself in him, moving my tongue appropriately to make sure that the sensual yet emotionless sounds of my wet, slick saliva pierced our ears.
But there was no helping the difference in our strength. I was once again, pushed back to where I had started.
I glowered at him, upset that he had refused to do what I wanted him to. His expression was as cold as a sheet of ice.
I became immersed in the memories of the past for a moment. But, I was soon dragged back to reality. I was sure my face, filled with fear, was a real sight to see.
I had subconsciously stepped back, away from him. For each step he took forward, I took one back. My footsteps were as careful and elegant like a feline’s.
His were like those of a lion, hunting its prey-silent but dangerous.
I closed my eyes as our shadows completely overlapped.
“If I tell you to stop,”
It felt as though a blade ran across my left cheek, just as soon as his words came. I flew backwards with acry. The incredible force of the impact had burst the inside of my mouth.
I fell to the ground in a helpless heap. His shadow slowly descended upon my body that had been roughly tossed into the corner of the room. Ah, I’m going to go crazy. He’s mad.
“You should stop.”
I was lifted up from the ground by the locks of my hair. The skin on my right cheek was starting to burst. I was once again thrown into the corner of the room by his flailing hands.
His shadow hovered over me once again. Even though I couldn’t see through my blurred vision, I could still easily detect his scent as well as his anger that were approaching me. I curled up my body tightly.
Despite this, he paid no mind and began beating me.
I coughed as if I would throw up a mouthful of blood at any moment, as the assult on my stomach by his strong kicks continued.
Though I could take one or two kicks, as they continued, the pain from his merciless foot left me unable to scream and to take the abuse silently.
It felt as though my organs were being shaken up from the impact. It was so painful that I couldn’t stand it. I was at my limit.
However, it was at this point that he finally stopped. I wrapped my arms around my stomach and looked up at him.
The tears came like a river. But despite this, he ruthlessly kicked my pretty face. Both my body, along with a stool crashed on to the ground.
My jaw was numb, as though it was dislocated.
“Oppa…sob, you’re scaring me…Ahh!!!!!!”
Another stool was thrown on to my body. I couldn’t breathe, the moment that it struck the small of my back.
I cried, my face twisted in pain. Jung Yunho stood before me in the form of a violent animal. I wanted to scream but no sound came from my lips.
Maybe it was because my body had grown a lot weaker recently, but I found that my stamina had decreased as well. I felt all the strength leave my body, despite the fact that I hadn’t yet taken too much damage.
I looked up at Yunho, my body crumpled and unmoving like a corpse. The shadowed face that looked down at me seemed to offer a warning.
‘There’s an extent to my patience’
It was the expression he had always shown me whenever I would cross the line with my cute little antics.
I climbed up on top of me. Sitting on top of my stomach that had ached so badly that it had finally lost all feeling, he stretched out both of his hands towards the base, applying a force strong enough to snap my slender neck. It felt as though my eyeballs might pop out of my skull as my windpipe became crushed.
The blood started to pool in my face. I raised my hands and managed to grab his wrists with great difficulty.
The force trying to push him away was feeble, whereas the strength around my neck never faltered.
“Why did you show up? Huh?! Just what are you planning to do to me this time!!!”
“Hah…”
Just when I thought that one hand was loosening, the force in the other became deadly. It felt as though my veins were about to burst out from my ears.
I shook my head with all my strength. Just as he raised his free hand, curled into a first, high into the air, I screwed my eyes tightly shut.
Just as a bright flash went off in front of my eyes and my head knocked to the side, the oxygen was suddenly returned to my body.
My swollen cheek burned as though a wild fire was raging on the surface as I took my first breath.
My limbs started trembling at the rush of feeling that returned to my body that had previously been lost from the lack of oxygen.
“Did you come back to do that horrible thing a second time? Huh?!”
“Haah, uhh..”
“Why did you show up again, just when I thought that I might finally be able to forget!!!”
“Hah…Huu…urgh…Yun, Yunho…”
I was being strangled again. This time, he dug his fingers deep into the area beneath my jaw.
I knew that feeling. Not only was it the feel of Yunho’s hands, but also of the rope that I had hung from the ceiling and tried putting around my neck for fun.
Even though the feeling of the rope and his thick fingers were distinctly different, I was at least not afraid of Yunho’s hands. Pleasure had overpowered anything else in my mind.
Fear dissipated, tears filled my eyes, and the corners of my lips began to pull up.
My lungs suddenly expanded.
I hurdled my body off the edge of the cliff.
I couldn’t see Yunho, blinded my body’s desire for the pain.
A brand new world painted itself in front of my eyes. Where was this place; and what was was I doing here….
Yunho…
Yunho…
Save me…
“Hah, haa, ahh, huuh…”
I was pulled back to the present before I had had a chance to taste the moment of ecstacy right before my mind went blank.
The strength returned to my limbs as I gasped for air like a person who had been drowned under the waves of sleep of an extended period of time.
My black eyes began to return from inside my own head and back to the present to focus on Yunho.
Even though he looked more or less surprised, he soon freed my neck from his grasp with his eyes clouded over with an unnamable emotion.
His expression was a lot more broken than it had been just a few moments ago. The cold, calm Jung Yunho was nowhere to be found.
He called out to me in a deflated voice, almost as if all the anger that he had managed to squeeze inside of him that had all come rushing out at once had left a void in his heart.
“Crazy bitch. How dare you come here…”
I wonder what I had seen there. What had I hoped for as I dipped my feet into that river of molten gold? I closed my eyes. And I remembered.
The world dusted with a fine sheen of gold and filled with creatures with faces twisted by greed-That wasn’t where I was.
I had already seen them several times. Their grotesquely shaped, long, thin claws that beckoned for me, their blue hands with bones protruding out from the flesh, and their crimson lips that stretched from ear to ear that groveled and begged endlessly for my life.
…But that wasn’t where I was right now.
“Shake my resolve…”
Because I was here.
“Who the hell…are you to…”
Your bright crimson heart had loved me even through that treacherously firey path.
“Still torturing me to this day…”
Our past and the recollections of it was the only breeding ground in which fresh romance and tragedy could mingle and coexist in harmony.
His body disappeared from its position on top of me before I had even had a chance to wrap my arms around him. He had chosen to escape from this place in which reality was melting down around us.
Are you still afraid? Are you that worried? Take my hand.
My beautiful scaredy-cat, take my hand… .
…let’s hurdle ourselves down into the firey pits of ruin and pleasure.
Written by: maio
Translated by: happy_colour
“You scare me, really…I’m even scared of the fact that my own memories keep coming back to you…So if you change too…What am I supposed to do…”
Despite the seriousness, I found had always found my body wracked with carnal desire in a situation like this.
My voice grows soft, and the bottom of heart starts to vibrate and swell in anticipation. I’d been trained well.
I was able to get an erection at just the thought of being smacked around by his rough hands, despite being filled with dread at what might come afterwards.
I cupped my hands gently around his cheek. His small face changed dramatically as soon as my flesh made contact with his.
“Please hold me…Just once. Please just hold me… It’s not like I’m expecting a kiss like in the old days, or anything…”
“…”
“My heart’s so cold that I think I might die…”
“….”
He finally took me into his arms. I clung on to him as if my life depended on it, after I had managed to take a hold of him, using my helplessness as a weapon.
I pressed my flesh closer to his in an attempt to communicate my sadness through our skin.
Even though he made no movement in response, I was thankful that he at least didn’t push me away. I let out a sound that was neither quite a sob nor a sigh into the base of this neck.
I had missed every single bit of Yunho, right down to each and every cell. My body let out a cry of joy.
I could feel that he at least loved me from the beat of his heart against mine.
Jung Yunho was struggling desperately, never to fall in that kind of persistent love, ever again.
I slyly wound my free arm up his back like a snake and wrapped it firmly around his strong neck. My crimson lips that had been travelling closer to him, suddenly stopped underneath his chin.
“What can I do…now that you’re not mine anymore…How could I…now…What right do I have…sob…”
Look at me…Look at my pretty face. Look at the face that made you crazy for me way back when we were young.
Keep me in your eyes. From there, I want to bloom out gracefully. Please do it for me.
“I won’t do it again…I’ll be really good from now on…”
I place a kiss on those sweet, succulent lips. The breath escaping from the slight part between them flowed into my mouth.
If just his breath was this hot, I wondered how the deep caverns of his mouth might feel...
I pulled his neck towards me a second time, and pressed my lips even more firmly onto his, opening my mouth in an attempt to swallow him whole.
I closed my eyes. And I moved my lips sensually. But I couldn’t feel anything through his mouth that was clamped shut.
I opened my eyes to find his head turned to the side. I approached him again, but he avoided me cruelly. I chased after the fleeing pair of lips
To the right, to the left….
“Urgh.”
Ah, I finally latched on to him. No, I bit him.
I couldn’t suppress the desire that had filled me right up to the top of my head at the brief moment of contact with that soft flesh. .
Yunho’s lip burst along with a small sound. That crimson elixir of life quenched my unbearable thirst.
“Stop it.”
I got pushed away again, losing my grip on his firm neck and separated from his soft lips.
He wiped at mouth that had been lathered with saliva, with the back of his hand, as if for me to see. But even that was as blindingly beautiful as a scene in a movie.
I told you to stop making me go crazy….
I approached him again, attracted like a magnet.
This time, I grabbed his face firmly enough that he would not be able to easily escape my grasp and sucked at his tightly closed lips noisily.
I lapped at the area around his mouth like a dog. I indulged myself in him, moving my tongue appropriately to make sure that the sensual yet emotionless sounds of my wet, slick saliva pierced our ears.
But there was no helping the difference in our strength. I was once again, pushed back to where I had started.
I glowered at him, upset that he had refused to do what I wanted him to. His expression was as cold as a sheet of ice.
I became immersed in the memories of the past for a moment. But, I was soon dragged back to reality. I was sure my face, filled with fear, was a real sight to see.
I had subconsciously stepped back, away from him. For each step he took forward, I took one back. My footsteps were as careful and elegant like a feline’s.
His were like those of a lion, hunting its prey-silent but dangerous.
I closed my eyes as our shadows completely overlapped.
“If I tell you to stop,”
It felt as though a blade ran across my left cheek, just as soon as his words came. I flew backwards with acry. The incredible force of the impact had burst the inside of my mouth.
I fell to the ground in a helpless heap. His shadow slowly descended upon my body that had been roughly tossed into the corner of the room. Ah, I’m going to go crazy. He’s mad.
“You should stop.”
I was lifted up from the ground by the locks of my hair. The skin on my right cheek was starting to burst. I was once again thrown into the corner of the room by his flailing hands.
His shadow hovered over me once again. Even though I couldn’t see through my blurred vision, I could still easily detect his scent as well as his anger that were approaching me. I curled up my body tightly.
Despite this, he paid no mind and began beating me.
I coughed as if I would throw up a mouthful of blood at any moment, as the assult on my stomach by his strong kicks continued.
Though I could take one or two kicks, as they continued, the pain from his merciless foot left me unable to scream and to take the abuse silently.
It felt as though my organs were being shaken up from the impact. It was so painful that I couldn’t stand it. I was at my limit.
However, it was at this point that he finally stopped. I wrapped my arms around my stomach and looked up at him.
The tears came like a river. But despite this, he ruthlessly kicked my pretty face. Both my body, along with a stool crashed on to the ground.
My jaw was numb, as though it was dislocated.
“Oppa…sob, you’re scaring me…Ahh!!!!!!”
Another stool was thrown on to my body. I couldn’t breathe, the moment that it struck the small of my back.
I cried, my face twisted in pain. Jung Yunho stood before me in the form of a violent animal. I wanted to scream but no sound came from my lips.
Maybe it was because my body had grown a lot weaker recently, but I found that my stamina had decreased as well. I felt all the strength leave my body, despite the fact that I hadn’t yet taken too much damage.
I looked up at Yunho, my body crumpled and unmoving like a corpse. The shadowed face that looked down at me seemed to offer a warning.
‘There’s an extent to my patience’
It was the expression he had always shown me whenever I would cross the line with my cute little antics.
I climbed up on top of me. Sitting on top of my stomach that had ached so badly that it had finally lost all feeling, he stretched out both of his hands towards the base, applying a force strong enough to snap my slender neck. It felt as though my eyeballs might pop out of my skull as my windpipe became crushed.
The blood started to pool in my face. I raised my hands and managed to grab his wrists with great difficulty.
The force trying to push him away was feeble, whereas the strength around my neck never faltered.
“Why did you show up? Huh?! Just what are you planning to do to me this time!!!”
“Hah…”
Just when I thought that one hand was loosening, the force in the other became deadly. It felt as though my veins were about to burst out from my ears.
I shook my head with all my strength. Just as he raised his free hand, curled into a first, high into the air, I screwed my eyes tightly shut.
Just as a bright flash went off in front of my eyes and my head knocked to the side, the oxygen was suddenly returned to my body.
My swollen cheek burned as though a wild fire was raging on the surface as I took my first breath.
My limbs started trembling at the rush of feeling that returned to my body that had previously been lost from the lack of oxygen.
“Did you come back to do that horrible thing a second time? Huh?!”
“Haah, uhh..”
“Why did you show up again, just when I thought that I might finally be able to forget!!!”
“Hah…Huu…urgh…Yun, Yunho…”
I was being strangled again. This time, he dug his fingers deep into the area beneath my jaw.
I knew that feeling. Not only was it the feel of Yunho’s hands, but also of the rope that I had hung from the ceiling and tried putting around my neck for fun.
Even though the feeling of the rope and his thick fingers were distinctly different, I was at least not afraid of Yunho’s hands. Pleasure had overpowered anything else in my mind.
Fear dissipated, tears filled my eyes, and the corners of my lips began to pull up.
My lungs suddenly expanded.
I hurdled my body off the edge of the cliff.
I couldn’t see Yunho, blinded my body’s desire for the pain.
A brand new world painted itself in front of my eyes. Where was this place; and what was was I doing here….
Yunho…
Yunho…
Save me…
“Hah, haa, ahh, huuh…”
I was pulled back to the present before I had had a chance to taste the moment of ecstacy right before my mind went blank.
The strength returned to my limbs as I gasped for air like a person who had been drowned under the waves of sleep of an extended period of time.
My black eyes began to return from inside my own head and back to the present to focus on Yunho.
Even though he looked more or less surprised, he soon freed my neck from his grasp with his eyes clouded over with an unnamable emotion.
His expression was a lot more broken than it had been just a few moments ago. The cold, calm Jung Yunho was nowhere to be found.
He called out to me in a deflated voice, almost as if all the anger that he had managed to squeeze inside of him that had all come rushing out at once had left a void in his heart.
“Crazy bitch. How dare you come here…”
I wonder what I had seen there. What had I hoped for as I dipped my feet into that river of molten gold? I closed my eyes. And I remembered.
The world dusted with a fine sheen of gold and filled with creatures with faces twisted by greed-That wasn’t where I was.
I had already seen them several times. Their grotesquely shaped, long, thin claws that beckoned for me, their blue hands with bones protruding out from the flesh, and their crimson lips that stretched from ear to ear that groveled and begged endlessly for my life.
…But that wasn’t where I was right now.
“Shake my resolve…”
Because I was here.
“Who the hell…are you to…”
Your bright crimson heart had loved me even through that treacherously firey path.
“Still torturing me to this day…”
Our past and the recollections of it was the only breeding ground in which fresh romance and tragedy could mingle and coexist in harmony.
His body disappeared from its position on top of me before I had even had a chance to wrap my arms around him. He had chosen to escape from this place in which reality was melting down around us.
Are you still afraid? Are you that worried? Take my hand.
My beautiful scaredy-cat, take my hand… .
…let’s hurdle ourselves down into the firey pits of ruin and pleasure.