Maybe Now
I'm going to try to make sense out of my last journal post. So I recently found out Jason not only kissed my best friend, he likes them. And they like him back. Cathy and Kim. He said he loves me, but I don't know what kind of person loves more than one person. So I feel dumb, and lied to. To think I would have friends that would love me and be there for me. Instead, I have ones that lied to me, let me sit there and talk about my problems with Jason. I feel ultra betrayed. Even worse Heather and Molly probably knew about it all. They sent secret little letters to each other, and hell I had no fucking clue. My favorite part is they are all my roomates next year in a lease. How am I going to live with liars and backstabbers? I don't know. I almost left Michigan last night, it wold have been way easier. If my parents weren't so sick, I would have. And I'm not being one of those girls that blame just the girl, It's Jason's fault as well. It's a mutual thing. Best friends hey? Well after crying until 6 in the morning, I can't deal with this anymore. I'm going to clean the house, get Davinci tickets, and start the apartment search, maybe so hang out with Kelly. Only one I got left. And in addition, I recently found out jason asked cathy if he could have sex with her and make her orgasm, and such. They all cuddle together, oh Sarah's at work, might as well. I made money than came home and gave it to him, while he was with my best friends all day. It's neat. God I love my life.