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I dropped my classes spring quarter and debated on leaving school altogether. After spending 8 months struggling between long distance love, asinine fraternity dramas, major switches, 3 odd jobs only to end up where I left to go somewhere better, financial instability and an emotionally strangling relationship I should never have gotten in I gave up. I weakened myself to a point where I needed to rethink and rebuild. Honestly I probably could've found a way around paying the $3,200 I owed the school in order to go back to it, but I didn't want to. I knew that I was stronger than this. I made the wrong decisions--not somebody else--and so I made myself accountable to pay back every cent, while in the mean time trying to figure out where to go from here.
Now I've got a serving job that I worked my ass off for and am next in line for another promotion (kind of), but through it have other avenues open for me. I wrote a book that a lot of people actually want to read, and so I'm finally going to revise soon, since I've had enough distance from it. I removed myself from people that weren't doing me any good and in turn have made a few really good friends. My bills are now all completely my own. I no longer depend on anybody, and I finally paid my financial aid bill off, symbolically concluding the year by coming full circle as a boy now looking at returning to the classroom to finish what he started. My best friend left and came back, and now she and I are much closer than ever. She's gone through a lot this year too, but together we've pulled and are continuing to pull each other out of our own debacles. She's made me a much better, fuller person and even introduced me to someone that I might have a future with. There's only one more thing I have to do to conclude this year. It kind of coincides with the promise I made to Sephora's dying aunt, and it's probably the sweetest thing that I've ever done for anybody. I've only told one person about it and it's gonna stay like that until after I do it. I only told him because I needed to get an opinion about it.
I'm starting this next year with a sense of rejuvenation, a regained motivation, financially stable and the potential for a new and healthy relationship. She deserves to have the new life that she wants to have, too.
It's three days too late... but I'm finally feeling the Christmas spirit :)
Now I've got a serving job that I worked my ass off for and am next in line for another promotion (kind of), but through it have other avenues open for me. I wrote a book that a lot of people actually want to read, and so I'm finally going to revise soon, since I've had enough distance from it. I removed myself from people that weren't doing me any good and in turn have made a few really good friends. My bills are now all completely my own. I no longer depend on anybody, and I finally paid my financial aid bill off, symbolically concluding the year by coming full circle as a boy now looking at returning to the classroom to finish what he started. My best friend left and came back, and now she and I are much closer than ever. She's gone through a lot this year too, but together we've pulled and are continuing to pull each other out of our own debacles. She's made me a much better, fuller person and even introduced me to someone that I might have a future with. There's only one more thing I have to do to conclude this year. It kind of coincides with the promise I made to Sephora's dying aunt, and it's probably the sweetest thing that I've ever done for anybody. I've only told one person about it and it's gonna stay like that until after I do it. I only told him because I needed to get an opinion about it.
I'm starting this next year with a sense of rejuvenation, a regained motivation, financially stable and the potential for a new and healthy relationship. She deserves to have the new life that she wants to have, too.
It's three days too late... but I'm finally feeling the Christmas spirit :)