Paranoia, paranoia, everybody's coming to get me...
Hello.
Today my mummy visited. I love her. And I miss her. And I miss her more when I've just seen her.
I also hate shopping.
They don't make clothes in my size. Well...they do but they never have any. And so many shops start at a fucking size 8. What about those of us smaller than that huh? I hate reading magazines and feeling villified for being small. I mean yes some celebrities (eg. Nicole Richie, although she has been putting on weight) are too small. But some of us are meant to be little! I understand that magazines constantly have these body surveys where guys say they hate skinny bodies and prefer curvy bodies (also, for the record: curvy, yes that is attractive. Charlotte Church and Jade Goody? Overweight. Look at the wobbly bellies. Or at least, not the healthiest of shapes, not fit in either sense of the word.) because the average woman is like a size 14 or something, but it hardly does wonders for us smaller girls' morales now does it? To open up a magazine and feel like we should be ashamed and guilty of being so small, and that in actual fact 99% of guys don't find us attractive because we're skinny. Which, from personal experience, is a load of bollocks. But it doesn't stop it hurting.
You get fucking Evans for fat people, why isn't there a shop to cater for the petite lady?
I'll just have to become rich and open up my own chain of shops for small/slender girls. With a fucking bra range that comes in sizes smaller than a 32. For fuck sake.
I don't even care that I've called Charlotte Church overweight. I've not got an eating disorder and I don't care what the BMI index says because I'm not underweight. I've not got bones sticking out. I suppose I'm shallow, and if any of you think less of me because I think an attractive shape is that of an 6 to a 12 then go fuck yourselves. And you know what, I LIKE being a 4/6 okay? I'm not about to feel bad because I want to be slim or because I don't like seeing fat people eat.
*sighs*
I bet a lot of people hate me now.
In other news: I'm fickle. Fucking text me Drummerboy!? Even though I'll turn you down. Still text.
It is now less than a fortnight til I'm 19. Which also means less than a fortnight til my first exam. Balls to that.
Goodnight.
Rachel
xxx
Today my mummy visited. I love her. And I miss her. And I miss her more when I've just seen her.
I also hate shopping.
They don't make clothes in my size. Well...they do but they never have any. And so many shops start at a fucking size 8. What about those of us smaller than that huh? I hate reading magazines and feeling villified for being small. I mean yes some celebrities (eg. Nicole Richie, although she has been putting on weight) are too small. But some of us are meant to be little! I understand that magazines constantly have these body surveys where guys say they hate skinny bodies and prefer curvy bodies (also, for the record: curvy, yes that is attractive. Charlotte Church and Jade Goody? Overweight. Look at the wobbly bellies. Or at least, not the healthiest of shapes, not fit in either sense of the word.) because the average woman is like a size 14 or something, but it hardly does wonders for us smaller girls' morales now does it? To open up a magazine and feel like we should be ashamed and guilty of being so small, and that in actual fact 99% of guys don't find us attractive because we're skinny. Which, from personal experience, is a load of bollocks. But it doesn't stop it hurting.
You get fucking Evans for fat people, why isn't there a shop to cater for the petite lady?
I'll just have to become rich and open up my own chain of shops for small/slender girls. With a fucking bra range that comes in sizes smaller than a 32. For fuck sake.
I don't even care that I've called Charlotte Church overweight. I've not got an eating disorder and I don't care what the BMI index says because I'm not underweight. I've not got bones sticking out. I suppose I'm shallow, and if any of you think less of me because I think an attractive shape is that of an 6 to a 12 then go fuck yourselves. And you know what, I LIKE being a 4/6 okay? I'm not about to feel bad because I want to be slim or because I don't like seeing fat people eat.
*sighs*
I bet a lot of people hate me now.
In other news: I'm fickle. Fucking text me Drummerboy!? Even though I'll turn you down. Still text.
It is now less than a fortnight til I'm 19. Which also means less than a fortnight til my first exam. Balls to that.
Goodnight.
Rachel
xxx