I found myself, the better part of myself. ^_^
Josh Groban
You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I... I will lift it for you
Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I... I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved
Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I... I will be there to find you
Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I... I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up because you are loved
You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everyone needs to be heard
You are loved
I've noticed that I feel different lately. I'm smiling more, and I feel good about myself. I miss my boyfriend like crazy and I seem not to be able to help myself. But I'm oddly happy... Its not because Mike isn't around, because it'll be like two entire weeks before we get to see each other again (-_-).
I feel different because I've come to realize that the only person's opinion that matters the most to me is... well Mike's. My parents' opinions matter, just not all that much. Even though I have two long scars on my back now from my stupidity, I know I can survive anything so long as I know my b/f isn't going to suddenly turn tail and run.
Though I'm getting sick of mom saying that its exactly what Mike will do. How does she know what Mike is going to do? Can she read his mind? I don't think so, at least I hope not. And even though I feel cheated when mom tells me that Mike and her have the same sentiments, it doesn't hurt my feelings anymore. I tend to worry a bit more, so I've becomed careful as to what I talk about. Just to be on the safe side. ya know?
If I seem to be disconnected to what is happening, its just my crazy thoughts bothering me again. Though I might actually need a psychiatrist sometime in my life, but that's okay. I don't need one right now.
I'm content. I'm happy. I miss my b/f like mad. But I'm okay. I'm healing. I'm mending. I'm back to the way I was before everything changed. I'm better because my boyfriend lets me be me, and truly loves me.
That's all folks. I'm gonna practice typing for a little while. Bye, bye