Show me the way to the rubbish dump and the bins at closing time
Say no to silly books!
So it has been quite some time since my last entry and the ones I've left in my hand written journal are filled with emotional wandering and the mush that spilled from my brain. Oh I do feel bad for the poor soul who happens to read that book. =/.
Reading over the past few entries I've come to the idea that I need to continue writing in this live journal because life changes me almost daily and I can't process it fast enough without sitting down and attempting to scrawl it on the wall here. (Oh and people willl NEVER stop asking me how work is going) Speaking of which...
I feel that work is better now, but the purplish bruises under my eyes and jaded way I look at everything probably tells a different story. Gosh I just got a call from my two RN friends and they are such uplifting people mang. I need to find a way to meet up with them more often =)
I realize after listening to some old FIF songs that I really need God in my life. I've had just a long 8 months here. It has been a trial in boundaries and has given me some wisdom and perspective that I wouldn't have gained if it werent for my current circumstances. I feel like the breadwinner adult here and that I'm doing too much yet not enough, and that I have an insurmountable mountain of debt that is not easy to hack off my leg because they are related to me. Wait no no no lets think this through with goals and solutions to the problems. It hasn't even been a year and here I am thinking that it will be the rest of my life. NAY! This will not be the rest of my life because of what? yes, boundaries and goals. Therefore (drumroll) ...I need to go back to school.. eventually, lets shoot for 2013. I was shooting for next year or this year but I really need to take a chill pill here. chill out ~
Also, I am wanting to fit a large travel trip in before the end of the year, oh wait I went to Hawaii in February, which was awesome. Aloha oi! But i need to save up for school and pay down the student loans. nvm
I woke up the other day and was stunned to realize that I've only been a nurse for a year and a half. I feel decades old! And like that crusty vampire from Twilight I'm over 100 years old but I've gained no wisdom to show for it. HA. yes, well... I guess its a relief that it's only been a year and a half and not a hundred because that's not an understatement.
lets think about the fishbowl effect. I can choose to remain in the fishbowl and think of my current circumstance as a negative situation, but what a terrible waste of time! I'd much rather live outside the fishbowl and enjoy my time there.
So it has been quite some time since my last entry and the ones I've left in my hand written journal are filled with emotional wandering and the mush that spilled from my brain. Oh I do feel bad for the poor soul who happens to read that book. =/.
Reading over the past few entries I've come to the idea that I need to continue writing in this live journal because life changes me almost daily and I can't process it fast enough without sitting down and attempting to scrawl it on the wall here. (Oh and people willl NEVER stop asking me how work is going) Speaking of which...
I feel that work is better now, but the purplish bruises under my eyes and jaded way I look at everything probably tells a different story. Gosh I just got a call from my two RN friends and they are such uplifting people mang. I need to find a way to meet up with them more often =)
I realize after listening to some old FIF songs that I really need God in my life. I've had just a long 8 months here. It has been a trial in boundaries and has given me some wisdom and perspective that I wouldn't have gained if it werent for my current circumstances. I feel like the breadwinner adult here and that I'm doing too much yet not enough, and that I have an insurmountable mountain of debt that is not easy to hack off my leg because they are related to me. Wait no no no lets think this through with goals and solutions to the problems. It hasn't even been a year and here I am thinking that it will be the rest of my life. NAY! This will not be the rest of my life because of what? yes, boundaries and goals. Therefore (drumroll) ...I need to go back to school.. eventually, lets shoot for 2013. I was shooting for next year or this year but I really need to take a chill pill here. chill out ~
Also, I am wanting to fit a large travel trip in before the end of the year, oh wait I went to Hawaii in February, which was awesome. Aloha oi! But i need to save up for school and pay down the student loans. nvm
I woke up the other day and was stunned to realize that I've only been a nurse for a year and a half. I feel decades old! And like that crusty vampire from Twilight I'm over 100 years old but I've gained no wisdom to show for it. HA. yes, well... I guess its a relief that it's only been a year and a half and not a hundred because that's not an understatement.
lets think about the fishbowl effect. I can choose to remain in the fishbowl and think of my current circumstance as a negative situation, but what a terrible waste of time! I'd much rather live outside the fishbowl and enjoy my time there.