ugh

[happimashimaro]

i feel so shitty today. goddamnit. i really dont wanna go out at all today. all i want to do is stay in and just play games. i dont even think i wanna go out next week or the week after. i really, just, do not want to go out. i kinda want to just go to school, go to work, come home and rest. fucking hell, im so angsty today. you know its angsty when you know your angsty. i think i know why im feeling so shitty (and im sure you do too) its because im starting to think ill never be first. never. and its really getting me down. maybe retreating from all this competition would be best for me. maybe best friends shouldnt matter. maybe friends shouldnt either. that way i wont be ranked.

(picture will come eventually, when i feel less like shit.)