Whine whine whine. (Sorry.)
I love how this song always manages to cheer me up alot. :D
Lately I've been such a mess. This whole no sleep at night/early wake up call thing is really starting to take its toll. (Well, not that it hasn't been for the last three years or so, but y'know...) An eternal span of consciousness is bad news physically, emotionally, and mentally. Yeah I'm pretty sure that covers it. It's not even because I've been living recklessly and staying out SUPER late or anything. I just can't sleep anymore. Cure me? Anyone, anyone...?
Bueller?
I think it's because I've had alot of bothersome things on my mind. Self annoyance and stuff like that. People frustrations and unnecessary guilt. Family ordeals. Unsupportive rents regarding college seeking. I really wish my mother would simply respect me for who I am and treat me accordingly. It's honestly a daily struggle. I find it very hard to respect her in consequence and that's not something I'm really proud of. This predicament leads to others and it all weaves an intricate web of gaps and disappointment. But I'll be out of the house soon enough I suppose. Oooone more year.
All I really want is to be a good person.
I've also realized that I'm not making enough money at all. Hello car that will never exist.
In other news, tonight was cool at least. I hung out with the Barrington crew and we were going to hit up the B-town carnival but it doesn't open 'til tomorrow! Soooooo what better thing to do than attend the "PRE-TEEN" party at Kendbrin?!? Ahahahah, I love visiting Jenna at work. Especially during pre-teen parties. We had all the kids line up at the diving board for a belly flop contest and we were the judges. This one kid literally KILLED himself all for a prize that was imaginary. Kids are hilarious sometimes. But then again, sometimes they're very much not, haha. It was also really nice seeing Sam, Courtney, Kirsten, Erica and all of them again too. Courtney (lifeguard) being pushed in the pool repeatedly pretty much made everyone's night I think. Nothing like red-bellied kids and horrible attempts at singing Bohemian Rhapsody over the loudspeaker.
Then we came back to mi casa and chilled and danced. Good, laid back times.
Well I feel slightly better now.
'Nighty nightuhz.
Lately I've been such a mess. This whole no sleep at night/early wake up call thing is really starting to take its toll. (Well, not that it hasn't been for the last three years or so, but y'know...) An eternal span of consciousness is bad news physically, emotionally, and mentally. Yeah I'm pretty sure that covers it. It's not even because I've been living recklessly and staying out SUPER late or anything. I just can't sleep anymore. Cure me? Anyone, anyone...?
Bueller?
I think it's because I've had alot of bothersome things on my mind. Self annoyance and stuff like that. People frustrations and unnecessary guilt. Family ordeals. Unsupportive rents regarding college seeking. I really wish my mother would simply respect me for who I am and treat me accordingly. It's honestly a daily struggle. I find it very hard to respect her in consequence and that's not something I'm really proud of. This predicament leads to others and it all weaves an intricate web of gaps and disappointment. But I'll be out of the house soon enough I suppose. Oooone more year.
All I really want is to be a good person.
I've also realized that I'm not making enough money at all. Hello car that will never exist.
In other news, tonight was cool at least. I hung out with the Barrington crew and we were going to hit up the B-town carnival but it doesn't open 'til tomorrow! Soooooo what better thing to do than attend the "PRE-TEEN" party at Kendbrin?!? Ahahahah, I love visiting Jenna at work. Especially during pre-teen parties. We had all the kids line up at the diving board for a belly flop contest and we were the judges. This one kid literally KILLED himself all for a prize that was imaginary. Kids are hilarious sometimes. But then again, sometimes they're very much not, haha. It was also really nice seeing Sam, Courtney, Kirsten, Erica and all of them again too. Courtney (lifeguard) being pushed in the pool repeatedly pretty much made everyone's night I think. Nothing like red-bellied kids and horrible attempts at singing Bohemian Rhapsody over the loudspeaker.
Then we came back to mi casa and chilled and danced. Good, laid back times.
Well I feel slightly better now.
'Nighty nightuhz.