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I'm not happy, I'm miserable in fact, maybe not every day, but just in general.
I've become completely useless as a person. I have two feelings - miserable and numb. It sounds so cliche but I literally just feel like a shell of a person walking around. Shaun tries so hard to make me "better" and it's just never going to happen. I just wanted to be able to be happy or at least get a little better. It's just pointless planning anything anymore. I can't be a good wife/friend/etc. if I always end up back at square one. I'm depressed and it makes everyone around me depressed and uncomfortable in the process. I'm so tired of being that person.
I've become completely useless as a person. I have two feelings - miserable and numb. It sounds so cliche but I literally just feel like a shell of a person walking around. Shaun tries so hard to make me "better" and it's just never going to happen. I just wanted to be able to be happy or at least get a little better. It's just pointless planning anything anymore. I can't be a good wife/friend/etc. if I always end up back at square one. I'm depressed and it makes everyone around me depressed and uncomfortable in the process. I'm so tired of being that person.