If I were you, I'd skip the first two paragraphs, because it's just more of me being indecisive
I've discovered that I only tend to get really anxious and worried and upset about college and life and just things in general when I'm sitting at home with nothing to do. Okay, maybe I haven't discovered it now, but I'm being reminded of the fact these past few days. My own little summer cabin fever. But the thing is, the longer I stew at home, the less I want to get out and do things, and the less I do get out and do things, and the more time I spend locked up inside my own head. So in this way, hopefully college will be a nice break.
I'm only bringing this up because I can't stop thinking about marching band. I sent an email to the people in charge, telling them that I decided to quit (very politely, I thought) and only recieved two emails from a senior in the trumpet section and the trumpet section leader, asking if there was anything they could do to help and telling me that I won't regret it if I join. Now, you can understand, this only made me feel worse, because all the things they had to tell me were points that I had been going over and over in my head incessantly for over a week. I'm afraid that, if I'm not a part of the marching band, I won't be able to make any friends at U of M. And I'm afraid that, by the time next fall rolls around, I won't have touched my trumpet for a year and/or I won't have any interest in being a part of the band.
But on the other hand, I know that if I do join now, I'll be distancing myself from home and all the friends I already have...just to stress myself out even more. Every time I consider the 'what if' of becoming a member, I get this sinking feeling and freak out; so that means it's the wrong decision, right?
Anyway. I dunno. I'm pretty sure that I'm going to end up freezing in place and not going to Band Week. And that's fine with me. I just don't want to regret anything, because I've already done enough of that to last me a few more years. I should just take a deep breath and drink some iced tea and be thankful that I have few enough problems in my life to allow me the luxury of worrying about this stupid thing.
Here's the part of the post where I rave about something you've never heard of! My band of the week is Brave Saint Saturn, the side project that Reese Roper came up with after he got bored sitting around for a decade and started writing music again. In case you didn't know, Reese was the lead singer of Five Iron Frenzy and is also probably the coolest person on the planet. Anyway, Brave Saint Saturn is, like Five Iron Frenzy, a Christian band that doesn't try to be too complex or too overbearing, but sings out genuine, earnest lyrics and has a good beat and a great message. The similarities end there, though; BS2 abandons the horns and generally has a darker tone than FIF, which I love because one can only stand bright, uplifting music for so long.
BS2's three albums--So Far From Home, The Light of Things Hoped For, and Anti-Meridian--roughly follow the story of the crew of the spaceship Gloria on their mission to observe Saturn's moons (just so you know, I've got their Wikipedia page open right now so I can tell you all this wonderful information. I should probably cite it properly but I just don't care). I love the concept alone. I'm not going to pretend to know the guy, but it is so Reese to combine science and religion like this, and I find it...almost inspirational to know that they can go hand-in-hand. Okay, Wikipedia is open again, and it wants me to tell you that Reese not only writes and performs Christian poetry, ska music, and rock music, but he has a degree in Biology, and was a delegate to the State of Colorado Democratic Primary. Sure, there was a citation needed for that last one, but THIS IS WHY REESE ROPER IS THE HOOPIEST FROOD ON THE PLANET.
So Brave Saint Saturn. Darkness and light are metaphors for isolation and faith, respectively, and I lurve a good metaphor. And it's about SPACE. Give 'em a listen. It's a shame that all the songs aren't on Youtube, because Guvera only has the first two albums and I wanna know what happens next! "Daylight" is kind of a huge cliffhanger. Gah.
Oh, and I finished Blankets. I'd rather review it here than just tell Pat what I liked and didn't like about it, because I'd probably end up forgetting to mention something. I'll get that done either tomorrow or Monday...
I'm only bringing this up because I can't stop thinking about marching band. I sent an email to the people in charge, telling them that I decided to quit (very politely, I thought) and only recieved two emails from a senior in the trumpet section and the trumpet section leader, asking if there was anything they could do to help and telling me that I won't regret it if I join. Now, you can understand, this only made me feel worse, because all the things they had to tell me were points that I had been going over and over in my head incessantly for over a week. I'm afraid that, if I'm not a part of the marching band, I won't be able to make any friends at U of M. And I'm afraid that, by the time next fall rolls around, I won't have touched my trumpet for a year and/or I won't have any interest in being a part of the band.
But on the other hand, I know that if I do join now, I'll be distancing myself from home and all the friends I already have...just to stress myself out even more. Every time I consider the 'what if' of becoming a member, I get this sinking feeling and freak out; so that means it's the wrong decision, right?
Anyway. I dunno. I'm pretty sure that I'm going to end up freezing in place and not going to Band Week. And that's fine with me. I just don't want to regret anything, because I've already done enough of that to last me a few more years. I should just take a deep breath and drink some iced tea and be thankful that I have few enough problems in my life to allow me the luxury of worrying about this stupid thing.
Here's the part of the post where I rave about something you've never heard of! My band of the week is Brave Saint Saturn, the side project that Reese Roper came up with after he got bored sitting around for a decade and started writing music again. In case you didn't know, Reese was the lead singer of Five Iron Frenzy and is also probably the coolest person on the planet. Anyway, Brave Saint Saturn is, like Five Iron Frenzy, a Christian band that doesn't try to be too complex or too overbearing, but sings out genuine, earnest lyrics and has a good beat and a great message. The similarities end there, though; BS2 abandons the horns and generally has a darker tone than FIF, which I love because one can only stand bright, uplifting music for so long.
BS2's three albums--So Far From Home, The Light of Things Hoped For, and Anti-Meridian--roughly follow the story of the crew of the spaceship Gloria on their mission to observe Saturn's moons (just so you know, I've got their Wikipedia page open right now so I can tell you all this wonderful information. I should probably cite it properly but I just don't care). I love the concept alone. I'm not going to pretend to know the guy, but it is so Reese to combine science and religion like this, and I find it...almost inspirational to know that they can go hand-in-hand. Okay, Wikipedia is open again, and it wants me to tell you that Reese not only writes and performs Christian poetry, ska music, and rock music, but he has a degree in Biology, and was a delegate to the State of Colorado Democratic Primary. Sure, there was a citation needed for that last one, but THIS IS WHY REESE ROPER IS THE HOOPIEST FROOD ON THE PLANET.
So Brave Saint Saturn. Darkness and light are metaphors for isolation and faith, respectively, and I lurve a good metaphor. And it's about SPACE. Give 'em a listen. It's a shame that all the songs aren't on Youtube, because Guvera only has the first two albums and I wanna know what happens next! "Daylight" is kind of a huge cliffhanger. Gah.
Oh, and I finished Blankets. I'd rather review it here than just tell Pat what I liked and didn't like about it, because I'd probably end up forgetting to mention something. I'll get that done either tomorrow or Monday...