It's only Wednesday! What a depressing week.
I can't say that I'm really surprised. We agreed to the terms of our situation. I just never expected it to go on for so long. I don't think either of us did. I never expected really that I would come to enjoy hanging out with you or that you and I would become friends. It wasn't supposed to be like that. But now it is and I can't help but think that your moving on to her is synonomous with you moving out of my life. For the past couple of days I have been asking myself if I should just cut you out of my life, if I should erase from my mind entirely and never think of you again. I don't think I could if I tried, but now that seems to be my only option. You have chosen for me and I don't think that it's fair. I opened myself to you and showed you parts of me that I have tried so hard to hide. I don't think that you ever really shared any of yourself with me. I don't know you at all and it scares me that I would give so freely of myself to a complete stranger.