where is the remote to life?
I wish all of this hurt and pain would just stop. The Crystal thing still hurts so much...like beyond belief. The Ben thing hurts too because it is looking like there is no chance of us being alright or together again. The Nick thing makes me very sad because I am scared for him. I will miss him so much. The Brian thing was horrible to hear. What will I do? It won't be the same without him. I will miss him so much. I cried when he told me. I am sad by everyone leaving. I am scared to get close to anyone else because they will just leave whether they mean to or not. I am very depressed and I don't want to show it but i have no other choice because it just shows. I am sick of being sad. I miss Crystal and I want to be alone sometimes. Brian is coming to get some of his stuff on Saturday so I am scared cuz I feel like I am overreacting about it. I wanna cry when I see him, but I will hold back tears. I will hug but not too tight. I will think but try not to feel. I don't know what to do anymore. I am sad...