*♥9*~...!
I miss Arashi.
Dianna, do you know when something happens that really upsets you, how even after it's 'resolved,' you still feel weird about it~?
It's happened a lot before. Never here until now. Miwako's still kind of upset about Gogokun... Even though he says he doesn't think she's stupid. She says all the wrong things to make him angry with her, and then he won't accept her apologies. It just... makes me wonder. I'm not even sure what to wonder about.
I've been feeling a bit sick, and my tummy's been hurting a lot. Magic Medicine doesn't even help that much now. Maybe this place sucked all the magic out of it. Or maybe it's because Miwako is so far away from Arashi and Hiro...
It's been kind of lonely. I practiced drawing yesterday afternoon--- I tried to draw Elizbette. Miwako was going to show Gogokun, but it didn't turn out very well, so she threw it away. I'm not very good at drawing.
I miss hugs and kisses; before I missed going all the way, but now... I don't really have that desire. I guess it was never really strong.
I've been feeling strange and thinking a lot. A lot about myself. And life. And sadness / happiness.
I like to make people happy. That's what I've been thinking about. It's better if Miwako can make other people happy, because she knows it's no fun to not be happy. That's what she's done forever. But I realised, even at home --- it's not just here --- with Arashi or Caroline or Sissy... I'm never very good at it. Either they're things that I can't help with and I don't really know what to say so I say something that is useless... Or I really want to help but when I try they just get mad and yell, and then Miwako gets hit. Or if she tries to give polite advice, they act cold, like I am too little and young and immature to have any... credibility. (That's a nice word. ♥)
I wish I had packed my real diary~ I like e-mails and things, and it's really fun, but it's better to hang out with someone in person. It's a lot more personal. Can you make a friend impersonally?
I think I should make better friends with the people from my world. It's safer that way. Maybe like Tamachan; he's nice. And Shuuchan.
I wish making people happy was more acquired than a gift. Or I wish I could understand better.
I miss Caroline. I miss my best friend.
Well, Miwako's been thinking a lot lately~ ♥ Everything's really okay! ♥
I have a pet, kind of, if you haven't heard~ O: His name is Elizabette and he is a lizard; BUT HE'S NOT GAY! (Don't pick on him! T^T He has no sex!) He is a boy with a girl's heart and he's very sad because everyone picks on him --- Mr. I-Don't-Like-Strawberries-Or-Pets-Man! ---and that's why he's mean.
But Mister Reno and I are going to try to make Elizabette feel better~! ^3^ When people dress in beautiful clothes, they feel more confident and happy~ So Miwako is going to make miniature lizard girl clothes for Elizabette, and Mister Reno (Chocobo Wrestler!) is going to catch Elizabette to put them on him, since Elizabette tries to bite Miwako~ ; o ;
Let's see~~~ O, and, haha, I met Reno~ XD Thank you, Misaosan~~~ Guess I won't need to go to the ShinRA building now with strawberries. Unless you guys want me to~? O:
I wonder what's been going on with Jonathon and Deikun~? (Those are separate thoughts! O: I don't think they know each other~) I'll have to see. (Maybe not about Deikun~ >>' ♥)
The strawberries are growing well! ^3^ Elizabette likes to eat them~
INUMARUKUN CAME OUT OF HIS ROOM~~~~! ♥ Haha~ ♥
I've got a lot of clothes done for the tea party!
Gogokun! Your outfit is ready!
Tamachan! Your outfit is ready!
Kafukachan! Your outfit is ready!
Shuuchan! Your outfit's not ready but your name fits there! ♥
Zackkun! Are there two Clouds? Or just one Cloud? Who is a chocobo... O:
Thank you a lot. ♥ I'm sorry if you had to wash your shirt because of Miwako's make-up... ; o ; You're a very good friend. ♥
It's a lot easier to not speculate on things in life~~~ =3='
However.
It's a lot harder to not think at all.
ELIZABETTE'S SWIMMING IN THE FACE BOWL O_Obsddjkssm,fs.