Is it over yet?
I don't do a lot of complaining here, but I must speak up that this goes down as the worst month of 2007.
When I wasn't battling the two week cold, I was tending to a seriously screwed up nerve in my neck...which got better just in time for me to fall down some stairs!
I've also become disillusioned with a lot of people lately. And I've lost my Christmas Spirit before it even began.
Basic lack of loyalty, respect, and passive-aggressive behavior are things that bother me, although I admit to the latter because conflict and me don't seem to blend well. I've been pulling away. My work is one example. Just a month ago I felt comfortable with everyone, and now I can't get to lunch fast enough just so I can be by myself. I don't trust anyone anymore. They don't seem like nice people behind the masks, and my "look out for yourself" siren is going off too often. What I have not figured out yet is if this means Time for New Friends, or my fragility is getting the best of me. I know my clumsiness certainly is.
And you reach a point where you look at the gifts you spent your money on and think, "Do the recipients of these even care about me? Why am I buying things for these people?"
Enough whining. What are you going to do about it, Hapless? Swaying things in my favor is what I do best. The alone time at work was spent winning another year's worth of NANOWRIMO! I will continue to write. If I spent my lunch writing every day, even when the month is over, I would get a lot accomplished. I can do some volunteer work again. I can move on and do Great Things and leave people who wish me ill to hang out alone in their anger.
And this will pass just like the days on the calendar.
When I wasn't battling the two week cold, I was tending to a seriously screwed up nerve in my neck...which got better just in time for me to fall down some stairs!
I've also become disillusioned with a lot of people lately. And I've lost my Christmas Spirit before it even began.
Basic lack of loyalty, respect, and passive-aggressive behavior are things that bother me, although I admit to the latter because conflict and me don't seem to blend well. I've been pulling away. My work is one example. Just a month ago I felt comfortable with everyone, and now I can't get to lunch fast enough just so I can be by myself. I don't trust anyone anymore. They don't seem like nice people behind the masks, and my "look out for yourself" siren is going off too often. What I have not figured out yet is if this means Time for New Friends, or my fragility is getting the best of me. I know my clumsiness certainly is.
And you reach a point where you look at the gifts you spent your money on and think, "Do the recipients of these even care about me? Why am I buying things for these people?"
Enough whining. What are you going to do about it, Hapless? Swaying things in my favor is what I do best. The alone time at work was spent winning another year's worth of NANOWRIMO! I will continue to write. If I spent my lunch writing every day, even when the month is over, I would get a lot accomplished. I can do some volunteer work again. I can move on and do Great Things and leave people who wish me ill to hang out alone in their anger.
And this will pass just like the days on the calendar.