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[hapevil43]

fuck, i hate THIS, I'm GOING FUCKING NUTS.
i hate loving her,
i hate not having her
i hate talking about her 24/7
i hate thinking about the times we use to have
i hate the new guy
i hate how she likes the new guy
i hate him
i hate her
i wish i hated her
i wish i didn't love her
i wish i could love her
i wish i wanted someone else when i'm alone
i wish i could just die.

why can't a girl be true? i found 2 in my whole life. and i lostboth of them due to drugs and other things.

i just wanna start new, start fresh and not have a good friend hate me, not have my car dirty,
man, i just wish things were way diffrent. i'm content but i can't do this.! i want herand only her! but i can't have her and only her! i get her and baggage and friends that hate me!!! i deserved it tho hahaha ya know what, it's just like fuck it and smoke crack and cigs all day and live the life i shouldn't but fuck life, fuck life
you only die once.
or is it
you only live once?
fuck it either way your going to die and your going to live but mostly your dying.