Oct 19, 2006 23:37
i never thought i would say this about anyone, except for one person, but god dam i miss her alot, i try to act like i don't i try to play it off as it doesn't bother me, but really i'm missing her so much, it's unbeleavable(SPELLING SUCKS) but man, it's crazy, i regret every little thing i did to her, i wish i could go back in time and make her the happiest girl alive, i could and would honestly marry her, i would spend my life trying to make her happy, if only she coul believe me, but i fucked her over to many times to have another chance, and this new girl is amazing, but it's not the same i just miss driving with her, laughing with her, laying with her, being with her, watching dumbass cartons and shit with her. i just insanely miss her, why can't i be a guy that wouldn't cheat, wouldn't do drugs, would just be so amazing to her. i want to marry her, i want to spend the REST of my life with her, ever after life.
i would so anything for her. i want to be her bestfriend, i want her to be able to cry on my shoulder, i want her to know how i really feel. i WANT HER TO KNOW, i want to be the guy she comes to just to say hi, i want to be the guy that would walk 2000 miles just to see her fucking face. how dearly i love you, how dearly i want you, how much i cry over you, how much your one of the few that seen me cry, thats why i feel so madly in love you. you make me crazy and i fucking love it. stephaknee fucking bennett i want to marry you, i will forever love you. i will forever love you, i WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU.
sincerly and with to much love for anyone to handle,
the wild bull that no one could tame, the one that wants you to have his soul the one thats want you to be there when he grows old and can't even walk, the one i would cry one everyday and the one that i would do anything for.
kevin.
sorry steph. i really am, i'm not sorry for sending this nor writing it.
i love you so dearly and so much with so much passion i could go on forever, you prolly won'tread this tho, but i got it out and i wish you could believe me, but this is honestly coming from my heart, you should feel it, cuz it's your heart to.
just one last thing.
this thing has been running thru my head all day and night and all day and night,
you in my car, and we're driving on route 34, and your hair was blowing in the wind and i looked at you and i knew from that moment on that your the one, your the one that i need/want/love. steph darling i miss you, i love you, your the world to me.