Friends, enemies, friends, enemies, then.....in between
It's strange that the mind sometimes shuts off negativity and then comes backs on, depending on the environment is the only assumption I can come up with really. The stranger thing is that a person that you once knew or really cared for shows you both sides of their personality and your not certain whether you should accept it or avoid there presence. I have patience, but I also am confused about certain individuals I associate with now and then. This is of course another challenge we all face, but then again some do have it easy. So like usual, instead of expressing my true feelings or concerns to the individual, I play along. but playing along, as best as it can be sometimes is quite a way to sometime lower yourself to their level or a level of an impostor. Keeping my distance however evens that out in such ways that does not make me feel too guilty. I hate drama, I avoid it, regardless of what some of those individuals say. But then again, maybe those individuals are the types that I really should avoid, but then again, what if they don't realize their mistakes? Thus why I choose to have patience, but even my patience, even kindness for that matter, seems to bring me deeper in muddy waters. Will I find another solution? Or should I continue on keeping the balance in a hopeful attempt something will go right.
Right now, someone I know has lighten up to me, but what for? No explanation? Sometimes for some it is best not to get into the details of what, how, and why something shook a friendship or relationship. I stood my ground, and I always will. I dunno, regardless things are ok now, but they don't feel too complete, maybe because there was no reason and only confusion. I will admit I can be difficult to some, but did they ever make an effort to understand like I have made to understand them? You really cannot discover the true nature of any person for, in a way for me to give an accurate analogy, that person is always and will be transparent and usually vague no matter how well you know them. But also there is the balance, and that balance is dark and light, sometimes one gets heavier then the other and that balance can either be temporarily off or forever weighed down, it depends on that person's choice. But in either way, I do not know what is going on. So far things are god, it seems. And it is not just one person but many, on many different levels negative or not. I just don't want to hurt someone emotionally, nor do I wish them to bestow that upon me. It's like Russian Roulette, you both have the power to take chance and eventually one will suffer the consequences, unless they choose to stop playing the game. People are hard to study, and maybe that's possibly the most difficult science of all is studying human nature, or nature in any animal really. The soul is complex and complicated, but I guess like others, I can be too. But it is not my intention, but maybe a reaction.
Right now, someone I know has lighten up to me, but what for? No explanation? Sometimes for some it is best not to get into the details of what, how, and why something shook a friendship or relationship. I stood my ground, and I always will. I dunno, regardless things are ok now, but they don't feel too complete, maybe because there was no reason and only confusion. I will admit I can be difficult to some, but did they ever make an effort to understand like I have made to understand them? You really cannot discover the true nature of any person for, in a way for me to give an accurate analogy, that person is always and will be transparent and usually vague no matter how well you know them. But also there is the balance, and that balance is dark and light, sometimes one gets heavier then the other and that balance can either be temporarily off or forever weighed down, it depends on that person's choice. But in either way, I do not know what is going on. So far things are god, it seems. And it is not just one person but many, on many different levels negative or not. I just don't want to hurt someone emotionally, nor do I wish them to bestow that upon me. It's like Russian Roulette, you both have the power to take chance and eventually one will suffer the consequences, unless they choose to stop playing the game. People are hard to study, and maybe that's possibly the most difficult science of all is studying human nature, or nature in any animal really. The soul is complex and complicated, but I guess like others, I can be too. But it is not my intention, but maybe a reaction.