Moar Meme!
Keeger's doing fine now, still recovering but, it peaked and broke the day I left to come back to Denver. Thank God for that one, that was a scary close call and one I'm not anxious to repeat anytime in the near future.
NOW FOR LESS SRS (sorta) AND MOAR MEME.
10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now.
1. Ooh baby girl, don't go letting this one out of your sight just because he isn't ready to go into a hardcore commitment. Going to that church has fucked your gullible mind up so hard honey, you don't need to get married at this age. Not when you're fresh out of high school and need time to explore that big world out there. He's already told you he doesn't want to think of you with another guy, be patient and wait for the good that will come out of this instead of pressuring and scaring him off.
2, It's almost scary how much like you I am, the older I get. Not that this is necessarily a bad thing, mind you. It's just a little interesting to watch as time goes by. But I will not be doomed by your damn love of purses! You may have gotten me liking heels and experimenting with make up, BUT YOU WILL NOT WIN ON THE PURSE END WOMAN.
3. I'm really happy for you, seriously, it's about damn time you found someone who could appreciate your awesomeness- just don't be too men, Mr. GM. XP
4. Why do I still have some little kernel of hope that you'll come to your senses and actually man up? I mean, really, you've made nothing but half-assed attempts at getting to know your "daughter" and now that you have Cassie, it really seems like you've been given a second chance- though God only knows my personal feelings on the matter say you don't deserve it- at doing the right thing. I just hope you don't fuck this one up like you've done with your other three children, you dick.
5. You caved and turned into the very person you loved so much to make fun of; kind of ironic if you ask me. At one point, I might have been willing to reconcile one more time, but I'm glad I didn't. Time proved to me that I made the right decision in the end; still meant what I said though.
6. Hey, why're you so damn scared of looking up and opening your heart to the world? What's the worst thing that can happen? You getting rejected? Shit, you've been through that before several, several times before, and you've survived every time. Let's give it another shot, shall we? It might not hurt to be that colorful butterfly instead of wishing to be that plain one who goes below the radar.
7. Ahh darlin', it's okay to be scared of doing things on your own. But it's something you gotta do, simple as that. Find something you can do either by yourself and enjoy or go out and make some new friends to spend time with. Might be fun and you'll feel a lot better about yourself afterwards too, the bigger the social circle, the more opportunities for growth, networking and maturing to be had. You might even learn something about yourself too.
8. Dear sweet GOD girl, get a grip. You've got a man, leave the other one alone unless your intentions are to break up with the one you've got now. Don't go trying to start shit just because your sister's bipolar as fuckall and your parents took a special priority to get her ass as back on the line as possible... which may or may not have helped, don't know, wasn't the vibe I was getting off her. And that little -=action here=- thing? Excessive. You can use stars like everybody else, it won't kill you.
9. Even though I said most of what was on my mind the other night, there's still more I could think of to say to you. But for what it's worth- though I doubt you even read this anymore or look into it- I hope the message got through to you and that you accepted what I had to say and saw it as genuine. Because that was almost as raw as it gets with me and it was extremely difficult to do. And for your information, what you said to me last night made me smile. Thank you- as much as you hate hearing people tell you that- for confiding that to me. Any time you want to do that again, I'm totally game for it.
10. You are so strong girl, my god, even though you were in the hospital, you thought only of your son and how he was doing. I'm so sorry that fucking douchebag of an ex-husband of yours couldn't see the beautiful, powerful woman that you are. Josh knows and he knew to snatch that shit right the hell up like the great man he is. You two are wonderful together, never forget that.
9 things about yourself
1. Books and Music are two things I will not live without. *__* Need my musics and my quiet form of entertainment.
2. I don't crave sweets or chocolate like other people seem to; but my GOD, I will devour an entire jar of kosher dill pickles if you let me.
3. I'm an absolute sucker for stupid couples in books, manga, games and anime. The more obnoxiously stupid they are, the better and more enjoyment I get out of reading and watching their relationship develop.
4. I absolutely hate bagpipes. Like. Srsly. Hate them. It's worse than nails on a chalkboard for me.
5. I like to create and design characters, especially female characters. There's just something fun about thinking up an appearance and using bits of symbolism from it to create their personalities.
6. I believe in the spiritual properties of Dreamcatchers and have one above my bed.
7. I use a ringtone for a specific group/person, depending on who they are to me.
8. I associate a song with everyone I know; sometimes people get more than one, others get enough for a whole damn soundtrack.
9. I'm starting to experiment a little more and figure out what I like, what I don't and am little by little getting to know myself.
8 Ways to win your heart.
1. Prove to me that it'll be okay if I let my guard down around you by doing the same around me.
2. Be patient, I'm not as quick on the uptake as some people and may need some time to figure things out.
3. Don't embarrass me in front of everyone by confronting me; do it privately and I'll respect you more.
4. Don't question my feelings; if I say it? It usually means I'm being honest about what I'm talking about.
5. Let me see you when you're vulnerable and down; don't hide or lie to me about how you're feeling and I will do the same.
6. Spend time with me; whether it's recommending a movie you think I'd like, a book or randomly fucking with me to goad me into a random wrestling match; every bit of one on one time counts.
7. Make me think; encourage me to explore new options and offer suggestions as to what I should test out.
8. Be honest with me and trust me enough to be honest with you; it may take a little while and some effort, but it will happen.
7 things that cross your mind a lot.
1. What time is it?
2. Blarg, stupid guts.
3. Gonna kill him with an axe, a piece of a coat hanger, a yogurt cup and twenty three tubes of peppermint chapstick.
4. Why must my attention span be so short?
5. Rain goddamn you or give me sun!
6. I'm sleepy.
7. Come on, BE A FEMALE EEVEE GODDAMMIT.
6 things you do before you fall asleep.
1. Set up whatever sleep mix I feel like listening to- be it the one with lyrics, or the instrumental.
2. Check on my dreamcatcher and make sure it's still hanging properly.
3. Light some sandalwood/other incense.
4. Make sure my cell's within easy reach.
5. Nest and make myself comfortable.
6. Curl up around a pillow and fall asleep.
5 people who mean a lot to you.
1. Mom, Dad and Whit (blood family)
2. Shihai
3. Ko
4. Lyra
5. Wendy/Tak (you both are tied)
4 things you're wearing.
1. Mom's ring
2. Moonstone pendant
3. Blue jeans one or two sizes too big (Dx)
4. Small, simple but neat little silver ring Lyra gave me.
3 songs you listen to often.
1. Before the Dawn- Evanescence
2. This Is How It Goes Down- Pink
3. Poker Face- Lady GaGa
2 things you want to do before you die.
1. Live a successful and meaningful life.
2. Discover who I am and what I'm meant to do in this life.
1 confession.
In three days, I'll have made it my first whole month without needing/feeling the urge to pull my hair out. Great progress and my first milestone has almost been achieved! Celebration time when I get my check from the bank!
(Kidding; not my actual confession)
Actual Confession: Watching you smile and laugh like you genuinely meant it was what made my entire night absolutely perfect. .
Anyways, no one has to do this if they don't want, it took me, like, XDDDDD three hours to do this.
NOW FOR LESS SRS (sorta) AND MOAR MEME.
10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now.
1. Ooh baby girl, don't go letting this one out of your sight just because he isn't ready to go into a hardcore commitment. Going to that church has fucked your gullible mind up so hard honey, you don't need to get married at this age. Not when you're fresh out of high school and need time to explore that big world out there. He's already told you he doesn't want to think of you with another guy, be patient and wait for the good that will come out of this instead of pressuring and scaring him off.
2, It's almost scary how much like you I am, the older I get. Not that this is necessarily a bad thing, mind you. It's just a little interesting to watch as time goes by. But I will not be doomed by your damn love of purses! You may have gotten me liking heels and experimenting with make up, BUT YOU WILL NOT WIN ON THE PURSE END WOMAN.
3. I'm really happy for you, seriously, it's about damn time you found someone who could appreciate your awesomeness- just don't be too men, Mr. GM. XP
4. Why do I still have some little kernel of hope that you'll come to your senses and actually man up? I mean, really, you've made nothing but half-assed attempts at getting to know your "daughter" and now that you have Cassie, it really seems like you've been given a second chance- though God only knows my personal feelings on the matter say you don't deserve it- at doing the right thing. I just hope you don't fuck this one up like you've done with your other three children, you dick.
5. You caved and turned into the very person you loved so much to make fun of; kind of ironic if you ask me. At one point, I might have been willing to reconcile one more time, but I'm glad I didn't. Time proved to me that I made the right decision in the end; still meant what I said though.
6. Hey, why're you so damn scared of looking up and opening your heart to the world? What's the worst thing that can happen? You getting rejected? Shit, you've been through that before several, several times before, and you've survived every time. Let's give it another shot, shall we? It might not hurt to be that colorful butterfly instead of wishing to be that plain one who goes below the radar.
7. Ahh darlin', it's okay to be scared of doing things on your own. But it's something you gotta do, simple as that. Find something you can do either by yourself and enjoy or go out and make some new friends to spend time with. Might be fun and you'll feel a lot better about yourself afterwards too, the bigger the social circle, the more opportunities for growth, networking and maturing to be had. You might even learn something about yourself too.
8. Dear sweet GOD girl, get a grip. You've got a man, leave the other one alone unless your intentions are to break up with the one you've got now. Don't go trying to start shit just because your sister's bipolar as fuckall and your parents took a special priority to get her ass as back on the line as possible... which may or may not have helped, don't know, wasn't the vibe I was getting off her. And that little -=action here=- thing? Excessive. You can use stars like everybody else, it won't kill you.
9. Even though I said most of what was on my mind the other night, there's still more I could think of to say to you. But for what it's worth- though I doubt you even read this anymore or look into it- I hope the message got through to you and that you accepted what I had to say and saw it as genuine. Because that was almost as raw as it gets with me and it was extremely difficult to do. And for your information, what you said to me last night made me smile. Thank you- as much as you hate hearing people tell you that- for confiding that to me. Any time you want to do that again, I'm totally game for it.
10. You are so strong girl, my god, even though you were in the hospital, you thought only of your son and how he was doing. I'm so sorry that fucking douchebag of an ex-husband of yours couldn't see the beautiful, powerful woman that you are. Josh knows and he knew to snatch that shit right the hell up like the great man he is. You two are wonderful together, never forget that.
9 things about yourself
1. Books and Music are two things I will not live without. *__* Need my musics and my quiet form of entertainment.
2. I don't crave sweets or chocolate like other people seem to; but my GOD, I will devour an entire jar of kosher dill pickles if you let me.
3. I'm an absolute sucker for stupid couples in books, manga, games and anime. The more obnoxiously stupid they are, the better and more enjoyment I get out of reading and watching their relationship develop.
4. I absolutely hate bagpipes. Like. Srsly. Hate them. It's worse than nails on a chalkboard for me.
5. I like to create and design characters, especially female characters. There's just something fun about thinking up an appearance and using bits of symbolism from it to create their personalities.
6. I believe in the spiritual properties of Dreamcatchers and have one above my bed.
7. I use a ringtone for a specific group/person, depending on who they are to me.
8. I associate a song with everyone I know; sometimes people get more than one, others get enough for a whole damn soundtrack.
9. I'm starting to experiment a little more and figure out what I like, what I don't and am little by little getting to know myself.
8 Ways to win your heart.
1. Prove to me that it'll be okay if I let my guard down around you by doing the same around me.
2. Be patient, I'm not as quick on the uptake as some people and may need some time to figure things out.
3. Don't embarrass me in front of everyone by confronting me; do it privately and I'll respect you more.
4. Don't question my feelings; if I say it? It usually means I'm being honest about what I'm talking about.
5. Let me see you when you're vulnerable and down; don't hide or lie to me about how you're feeling and I will do the same.
6. Spend time with me; whether it's recommending a movie you think I'd like, a book or randomly fucking with me to goad me into a random wrestling match; every bit of one on one time counts.
7. Make me think; encourage me to explore new options and offer suggestions as to what I should test out.
8. Be honest with me and trust me enough to be honest with you; it may take a little while and some effort, but it will happen.
7 things that cross your mind a lot.
1. What time is it?
2. Blarg, stupid guts.
3. Gonna kill him with an axe, a piece of a coat hanger, a yogurt cup and twenty three tubes of peppermint chapstick.
4. Why must my attention span be so short?
5. Rain goddamn you or give me sun!
6. I'm sleepy.
7. Come on, BE A FEMALE EEVEE GODDAMMIT.
6 things you do before you fall asleep.
1. Set up whatever sleep mix I feel like listening to- be it the one with lyrics, or the instrumental.
2. Check on my dreamcatcher and make sure it's still hanging properly.
3. Light some sandalwood/other incense.
4. Make sure my cell's within easy reach.
5. Nest and make myself comfortable.
6. Curl up around a pillow and fall asleep.
5 people who mean a lot to you.
1. Mom, Dad and Whit (blood family)
2. Shihai
3. Ko
4. Lyra
5. Wendy/Tak (you both are tied)
4 things you're wearing.
1. Mom's ring
2. Moonstone pendant
3. Blue jeans one or two sizes too big (Dx)
4. Small, simple but neat little silver ring Lyra gave me.
3 songs you listen to often.
1. Before the Dawn- Evanescence
2. This Is How It Goes Down- Pink
3. Poker Face- Lady GaGa
2 things you want to do before you die.
1. Live a successful and meaningful life.
2. Discover who I am and what I'm meant to do in this life.
1 confession.
In three days, I'll have made it my first whole month without needing/feeling the urge to pull my hair out. Great progress and my first milestone has almost been achieved! Celebration time when I get my check from the bank!
(Kidding; not my actual confession)
Actual Confession: Watching you smile and laugh like you genuinely meant it was what made my entire night absolutely perfect. .
Anyways, no one has to do this if they don't want, it took me, like, XDDDDD three hours to do this.