Past entries
Lord Almighty; I go looking for something specific and end up looking at the entries themselves and going through them. Two of them I read and felt... quite a bit out of that I'm not really wanting to talk a whole lot about.
The past is really something that can give a whole new light on the present.
I wonder if they even remember this like I do?
When you ask me if I understand, there are so many answers that I could say, the one that you know everyone will say is "yes".
But I can't say that word for everything that you've told me.
Do I understand the meaning of lonlieness, the kind that comes with no one understanding what you need/feel/want/etc?
Yes.
Do I understand the fear of the darkness within us? The struggle with it seemingly every single moment?
Yes.
Do I understand every little thing that you've told me and can I relate to everything that you've shared with me?
No.
That last question is answered with No because it's not possible for two people to understand everything about each other and relate to it in the exact way that you've shared it as. People may try and think that way and even fool themselves into believing that they understand everything and can relate to everything you say.
But it's their illusion that comforts them.
I still believe that even today; it's amazing how looking back on this has made me realize that, even back then in that time, as that person in that moment; I still had a little bit of who I am right now starting to lift her head.
The past is really something that can give a whole new light on the present.
I wonder if they even remember this like I do?
When you ask me if I understand, there are so many answers that I could say, the one that you know everyone will say is "yes".
But I can't say that word for everything that you've told me.
Do I understand the meaning of lonlieness, the kind that comes with no one understanding what you need/feel/want/etc?
Yes.
Do I understand the fear of the darkness within us? The struggle with it seemingly every single moment?
Yes.
Do I understand every little thing that you've told me and can I relate to everything that you've shared with me?
No.
That last question is answered with No because it's not possible for two people to understand everything about each other and relate to it in the exact way that you've shared it as. People may try and think that way and even fool themselves into believing that they understand everything and can relate to everything you say.
But it's their illusion that comforts them.
I still believe that even today; it's amazing how looking back on this has made me realize that, even back then in that time, as that person in that moment; I still had a little bit of who I am right now starting to lift her head.