since you've been gone, i'm not the same.

[hanuh]

so many nights. legs tangled tight.
wrap me up in a dream with you.
close up these eyes. try not to cry.
all i've got to pull me through is memories of you.

everyone told me that time would help me feel better.
it's been two weeks, and i'm feeling worse and worse everday. i don't know how to do this.

there's so many things i wanted to do
so many things i wanted to say,
and i guess now i'll never get the chance.

worst of all..no matter what he says,
i know that it's all my fault.

i don't even know what to do with myself now that i don't have him anymore.
i never realized that he really was everything to me.
i had forgotten how lonely it gets sitting at home by myself.
because we were always together.

a few days ago i had a dream that he had broken up with me.
i woke up crying and was like, "thank god that was just a dream."
and then i remembered.
it's not a fucking dream.
it's a fucking nightmare.

"you never know what you got til it's gone."
i never realized how fucking true that is.

one year. four months. six days.