septum ring
i got back from bk this morning.
i realized just how unbelievably disappointed i am w/ my situations in general.
i'm not sure how i'm going to improve things. but an effort is going to be put in place.
i realized how much of a push over i am. and that needs to be changed as well. but i don't know how one would go about changing. i think i'm to passive to attempt such an improvement.
i'm just feeling regretful and lonely.
i shouldn't have left again. i know that i would have had some possibilities if i had stayed so now i'm having a selfish case of the blues.
i have an extreme case of homesickness but i'm at my house so it's just sad.
i think i want an actual companionship, and not just someone who refers to me as a companion.
-nik'ki
i realized just how unbelievably disappointed i am w/ my situations in general.
i'm not sure how i'm going to improve things. but an effort is going to be put in place.
i realized how much of a push over i am. and that needs to be changed as well. but i don't know how one would go about changing. i think i'm to passive to attempt such an improvement.
i'm just feeling regretful and lonely.
i shouldn't have left again. i know that i would have had some possibilities if i had stayed so now i'm having a selfish case of the blues.
i have an extreme case of homesickness but i'm at my house so it's just sad.
i think i want an actual companionship, and not just someone who refers to me as a companion.
-nik'ki