whoever you think i am i'm probably just like you
When I was fifteen someone told me I was perfect, they even made a website and dubbed it Perfection. I remember laughing, because I've never thought of myself as anything close to ideal. My ears are huge, for one thing. I'm impatient for another, although more with myself than anyone else.
Nothing in my life prepared me for what was to come but isn't this always the case? We try and make ourselves ready for the future each in our own way. We set aside money, we eat, drink and be merry, we make plans, we dream and then it happens and we struggle with it because it's so rarely what we think it will be.
I used to sing MMMBop and yeah I still do. I can't hit those high notes anymore, not really, but the fans don't seem to care and everyone else would rather not hear it anyway. It's hard being a used to be at the time when most people are just getting started. There are a lot of people who will tell me that it's better to be a "has been" than a "never was". I don't know if that's true because I can't put on those shoes. I can't say what they feel like. I don't know if I would walk taller in them than I do in the ones I'm wearing now. I've probably changed as completely from the guy I used to be as any of you have, but I am always still going to be that kid to some people, maybe even to most people.
I'm told that I used to be a lot of people's guilty pleasure. If I was yours feel free to comment and tell me about it. If I wasn't your thing, tell me something about what you were like then. You have an unfair advantage on me right now. I'm not as shy as I was back then. And I don't mind remembering who I used to be as much as I did last year. Maybe I'm adjusting to this skin or maybe I am old enough to feel as nostalgic for the 90's as the next guy.
Nothing in my life prepared me for what was to come but isn't this always the case? We try and make ourselves ready for the future each in our own way. We set aside money, we eat, drink and be merry, we make plans, we dream and then it happens and we struggle with it because it's so rarely what we think it will be.
I used to sing MMMBop and yeah I still do. I can't hit those high notes anymore, not really, but the fans don't seem to care and everyone else would rather not hear it anyway. It's hard being a used to be at the time when most people are just getting started. There are a lot of people who will tell me that it's better to be a "has been" than a "never was". I don't know if that's true because I can't put on those shoes. I can't say what they feel like. I don't know if I would walk taller in them than I do in the ones I'm wearing now. I've probably changed as completely from the guy I used to be as any of you have, but I am always still going to be that kid to some people, maybe even to most people.
I'm told that I used to be a lot of people's guilty pleasure. If I was yours feel free to comment and tell me about it. If I wasn't your thing, tell me something about what you were like then. You have an unfair advantage on me right now. I'm not as shy as I was back then. And I don't mind remembering who I used to be as much as I did last year. Maybe I'm adjusting to this skin or maybe I am old enough to feel as nostalgic for the 90's as the next guy.