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So.
To Mr. Eric Kripke, Kim Manners, Jensen Ackles, Jim Beaver and everyone else:
Thank you. Seriously. You rock.
So I started crying at 9.03 and stopped for maybe a total of ten minutes, all together, most of which were commercials. I'll preface that by saying that today was my very last day of college, so I was a little emotional. But just - dude. I don't even know. I've been rehasing it a bit in chat and I'm still just.
Okay. First things first. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST THEY ACTUALLY DID IT. They did it. I had no idea. I never would've expected. But they killed that son of a bitch and I was so happy that I burst out into tears again. I actually cry more often from joy then from sadness, when I'm watching a movie or reading a book. And just. "That's for our mom, you son of a bitch." It could've been so cheesy but man, he sold it. My sister said that Dean's been sitting on that line for decades, practicing it the way that Inigo Montoya says over and over, "You killed my father. Prepare to die."
And JOHN. JOHN JOHN JOHN. I love John. I literally shouted when I saw JDM's name on the screen. I had no idea he was coming back and fuck, it was so good. I liked that they didn't speak - with JDM and JA, they've never really needed to. There's such chemistry between the two of them and any time you saw them on screen, you immediately got the sense that they were family - not like Sam and Dean, who were brothers that just happened to be brothers (although their family relation came through from the beginning as well), but a sense of all the years and pain that they've gone through, things that run so deep that they never have to talk about it. They just look at each other and know. I loved the look that Sam and John shared. It reminded me a lot of the look on Dean's face when Sam and John hugged in the first season, right before the Daevas showed up - it was so complex and quiet and just - no words, you know?
Speaking of which, I'm sure that anybody who's read one of my stories has noticed what a fat hard-on I have for literary parallels, so that scene - the end - everything - it did me in. I burst out giggling even though I was still crying, because I was so fucking happy that they did it that way. I'm so happy that we didn't get the cliffhanger ending I was expecting, even though I would've loved that too, it was just ... it was perfect.
We can say that Dean loves Sam more than anything over and over and over but man. He really, really loves Sam. And not just in a duty sort of way, either, not just automatically. He likes Sam, he loves how smart Sam is and how good Sam is and the person Sam's become and it hurts so badly to see how happy he was at the end of the episode. He doesn't even care, what's going to happen to him. All that matters is that he knows Sam's gonna be with him, Sam's gonna be there and Sam wants to be there. It's hard to take yourself out of that mindset of being the older sibling, especially since Dean's had it drilled in his head for so long - for his whole life, that this was his Job. Your first instinct is to Be Strong for them, to say that everything is fine, and over the season we've seen Dean slowly, slowly be able to do that with Sam. His grin at the end of the episode just killed me.
Speaking of which, I say this every time he shows up, but I need to write me some Bobby fic. Like, for real. I love Bobby more then words can say. I want to write epics devoted to Bobby Singer. I want to carry him around in my pocket and have him dispense advice to me. He cares for them SO MUCH. He looks at Dean like his own kid, you guys know it, and he wasn't just pissed that Dean would do something like that, he was HEARTBROKEN.
Dean ... man. What can I possibly say. He seemed sort of submissive, at times - or rather, not submissive exactly, but - I don't always see that portrayl of him, of a Dean that would say "I'm sorry, I'm sorry," to Bobby and really mean it, or say please. Please, don't tell Sam. Please don't be mad at me.
The direction was amazing, too. How it was shot - the lighting - in the first few scenes, Dean looks just as dead as Sam did.
So uh. When does the third season roll out?
I tell you, I'm bunnied hard for fic ideas, and now I'll actually have the time to write them. I think I need a few days to sort it all out.
To Mr. Eric Kripke, Kim Manners, Jensen Ackles, Jim Beaver and everyone else:
Thank you. Seriously. You rock.
So I started crying at 9.03 and stopped for maybe a total of ten minutes, all together, most of which were commercials. I'll preface that by saying that today was my very last day of college, so I was a little emotional. But just - dude. I don't even know. I've been rehasing it a bit in chat and I'm still just.
Okay. First things first. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST THEY ACTUALLY DID IT. They did it. I had no idea. I never would've expected. But they killed that son of a bitch and I was so happy that I burst out into tears again. I actually cry more often from joy then from sadness, when I'm watching a movie or reading a book. And just. "That's for our mom, you son of a bitch." It could've been so cheesy but man, he sold it. My sister said that Dean's been sitting on that line for decades, practicing it the way that Inigo Montoya says over and over, "You killed my father. Prepare to die."
And JOHN. JOHN JOHN JOHN. I love John. I literally shouted when I saw JDM's name on the screen. I had no idea he was coming back and fuck, it was so good. I liked that they didn't speak - with JDM and JA, they've never really needed to. There's such chemistry between the two of them and any time you saw them on screen, you immediately got the sense that they were family - not like Sam and Dean, who were brothers that just happened to be brothers (although their family relation came through from the beginning as well), but a sense of all the years and pain that they've gone through, things that run so deep that they never have to talk about it. They just look at each other and know. I loved the look that Sam and John shared. It reminded me a lot of the look on Dean's face when Sam and John hugged in the first season, right before the Daevas showed up - it was so complex and quiet and just - no words, you know?
Speaking of which, I'm sure that anybody who's read one of my stories has noticed what a fat hard-on I have for literary parallels, so that scene - the end - everything - it did me in. I burst out giggling even though I was still crying, because I was so fucking happy that they did it that way. I'm so happy that we didn't get the cliffhanger ending I was expecting, even though I would've loved that too, it was just ... it was perfect.
We can say that Dean loves Sam more than anything over and over and over but man. He really, really loves Sam. And not just in a duty sort of way, either, not just automatically. He likes Sam, he loves how smart Sam is and how good Sam is and the person Sam's become and it hurts so badly to see how happy he was at the end of the episode. He doesn't even care, what's going to happen to him. All that matters is that he knows Sam's gonna be with him, Sam's gonna be there and Sam wants to be there. It's hard to take yourself out of that mindset of being the older sibling, especially since Dean's had it drilled in his head for so long - for his whole life, that this was his Job. Your first instinct is to Be Strong for them, to say that everything is fine, and over the season we've seen Dean slowly, slowly be able to do that with Sam. His grin at the end of the episode just killed me.
Speaking of which, I say this every time he shows up, but I need to write me some Bobby fic. Like, for real. I love Bobby more then words can say. I want to write epics devoted to Bobby Singer. I want to carry him around in my pocket and have him dispense advice to me. He cares for them SO MUCH. He looks at Dean like his own kid, you guys know it, and he wasn't just pissed that Dean would do something like that, he was HEARTBROKEN.
Dean ... man. What can I possibly say. He seemed sort of submissive, at times - or rather, not submissive exactly, but - I don't always see that portrayl of him, of a Dean that would say "I'm sorry, I'm sorry," to Bobby and really mean it, or say please. Please, don't tell Sam. Please don't be mad at me.
The direction was amazing, too. How it was shot - the lighting - in the first few scenes, Dean looks just as dead as Sam did.
So uh. When does the third season roll out?
I tell you, I'm bunnied hard for fic ideas, and now I'll actually have the time to write them. I think I need a few days to sort it all out.