Update
Yet again I revisit the relationship issue.
So much has changed. I'm advancing quickly at work. I've got more responsibility and I am dedicating myself to it. I get serious accomplishment rush from it. It's kind of what I live for.
Plus, Facebook is giving me a reach of friends that I never knew I had. I'm communicating with my cousin who needs to get out of her situation and I feel a certain comaradarie with her. I'm realizing that I am kind of embarrassed to be with who I'm with. The older guy, the lazy guy.
It's hard when I work more than 8 hours a day, and he doesn't. I see no evidence of him trying to help out. Of helping me, of showing any interest in me or my career. All I get is, have you finished your thesis so we can move out?
The truth is, I don't want to move just yet. And I am resentful of being with someone who is lazy. Of someone who is keeping me from skiing. Just today I was thinking about how I used to take off to Mountain High after work and going skiing since they are open until 10 pm.
And I am not getting any richer, like I thought. I'm deeper in the hole and I've got nothing to show for it. I get these angry jibes when I want to fly back home to PA. I'm dying here. My life is fading away. We all make our own choices and once again, I made a bad one.
Let's see how the next few days go. He says i need more medication. If I did that, then he wins. Bastard.
So much has changed. I'm advancing quickly at work. I've got more responsibility and I am dedicating myself to it. I get serious accomplishment rush from it. It's kind of what I live for.
Plus, Facebook is giving me a reach of friends that I never knew I had. I'm communicating with my cousin who needs to get out of her situation and I feel a certain comaradarie with her. I'm realizing that I am kind of embarrassed to be with who I'm with. The older guy, the lazy guy.
It's hard when I work more than 8 hours a day, and he doesn't. I see no evidence of him trying to help out. Of helping me, of showing any interest in me or my career. All I get is, have you finished your thesis so we can move out?
The truth is, I don't want to move just yet. And I am resentful of being with someone who is lazy. Of someone who is keeping me from skiing. Just today I was thinking about how I used to take off to Mountain High after work and going skiing since they are open until 10 pm.
And I am not getting any richer, like I thought. I'm deeper in the hole and I've got nothing to show for it. I get these angry jibes when I want to fly back home to PA. I'm dying here. My life is fading away. We all make our own choices and once again, I made a bad one.
Let's see how the next few days go. He says i need more medication. If I did that, then he wins. Bastard.