Better than being alone
After much trepidation, I have come to the following conclusions:
1. My life is better with Tim in it, and my goals will be met within a relationship, not without. For now, the benefits outweigh the liabilities. This may not be true forever.
2. I love my job. At least I do for now.
3. I require lots of alone time. I require a vacation from Tim more than anyone knows.
4. I need to be on anti-depressants. Not to stay in the relationship, but to prevent the severe "downs" that I get knock me down for weeks on end, that I don't even realize that I had until I climb out of them.
5. This house needs to be quieter. THe TV needs to be off most of the time.
6. Going to sleep with the TV on is not a good thing.
7. I need to be in control of my schedule. I need to speak out about it and not give up on it.
8. I need to take long hikes every weekend.
9. I need to be more charitable.
And the last thing...
10. I need to let go of my fear, especially with those I am comfortable with. I need to talk about feelings more. And be more interested in other people.
(These are the precursors to my New Years resolutions., which surprisingly last year, I fulfilled about 80% of them. So, my goals are neither too lofty or too easy)
1. My life is better with Tim in it, and my goals will be met within a relationship, not without. For now, the benefits outweigh the liabilities. This may not be true forever.
2. I love my job. At least I do for now.
3. I require lots of alone time. I require a vacation from Tim more than anyone knows.
4. I need to be on anti-depressants. Not to stay in the relationship, but to prevent the severe "downs" that I get knock me down for weeks on end, that I don't even realize that I had until I climb out of them.
5. This house needs to be quieter. THe TV needs to be off most of the time.
6. Going to sleep with the TV on is not a good thing.
7. I need to be in control of my schedule. I need to speak out about it and not give up on it.
8. I need to take long hikes every weekend.
9. I need to be more charitable.
And the last thing...
10. I need to let go of my fear, especially with those I am comfortable with. I need to talk about feelings more. And be more interested in other people.
(These are the precursors to my New Years resolutions., which surprisingly last year, I fulfilled about 80% of them. So, my goals are neither too lofty or too easy)