Tell me what you dream of.
Wow. Napping and slacking off has taken a toll on my interweb life. 170 dA messages, emails galore, 3 pages of LJs. Dayumn. I guess it doesn't matter much. Only took me 30 minutes to catch up on. Hah!
I've been kinda sad. But it's alright. Things are happening. I'm trying not to let them pull me down. Just tell myself I'm fine. So be it!
I had a good old fashioned chit-chat with Coleen today. She's so cool. Why does Colin ruin everything? LOL.
Well like I said three lines up, I'm kinda frustrated with stuff. I feel bad about my relationship with Kristie. I'm gonna straight up honest. But it's the way it has to be. I'm just sorry it couldn't have worked out better. Hopefully she doesn't read this anymore. I'm not sure she did. Ahaha jk. Cause then it'll make everything awkward again. I just had to get it out. I know you don't care, but... fuck you.
I have the worse case of artist's block I've ever had in a long time. Everything I come up with is so bland and unoriginal. It makes me debate whether or not I want to be an art major. Am I even good enough to persue art a a career? Will I just get stuck and be forced to give up because I've lost my touch. I don't know... I meanI guess I have ideas but I usually dismiss them as stupid. They remind me of someone too much I guess. I'm also trying to finish up a few more pieces before AP art test portfolios need to be sent in. I'm not focusing on big pieces, just little baby ones. I just feel like such a failure of an artist. I look at what I've done and feel it wasn't much. Like I'm just some speck that'll never be acknowledged or noticed. Like I'm not even worth anyone's time. Angsting is the source of art. This is good. Ahahaha.
But seriously folks, I want my brilliance back. You took it. Give it back right now. Or at least my confidence.
QUESTION INTERJECTION: What would look funny with a monocle?
I like it's cause of my laziness. Hahahah.
I've gotta write the bandquet video script. Ah fack.
//LaterGators.
I've been kinda sad. But it's alright. Things are happening. I'm trying not to let them pull me down. Just tell myself I'm fine. So be it!
I had a good old fashioned chit-chat with Coleen today. She's so cool. Why does Colin ruin everything? LOL.
Well like I said three lines up, I'm kinda frustrated with stuff. I feel bad about my relationship with Kristie. I'm gonna straight up honest. But it's the way it has to be. I'm just sorry it couldn't have worked out better. Hopefully she doesn't read this anymore. I'm not sure she did. Ahaha jk. Cause then it'll make everything awkward again. I just had to get it out. I know you don't care, but... fuck you.
I have the worse case of artist's block I've ever had in a long time. Everything I come up with is so bland and unoriginal. It makes me debate whether or not I want to be an art major. Am I even good enough to persue art a a career? Will I just get stuck and be forced to give up because I've lost my touch. I don't know... I meanI guess I have ideas but I usually dismiss them as stupid. They remind me of someone too much I guess. I'm also trying to finish up a few more pieces before AP art test portfolios need to be sent in. I'm not focusing on big pieces, just little baby ones. I just feel like such a failure of an artist. I look at what I've done and feel it wasn't much. Like I'm just some speck that'll never be acknowledged or noticed. Like I'm not even worth anyone's time. Angsting is the source of art. This is good. Ahahaha.
But seriously folks, I want my brilliance back. You took it. Give it back right now. Or at least my confidence.
QUESTION INTERJECTION: What would look funny with a monocle?
I like it's cause of my laziness. Hahahah.
I've gotta write the bandquet video script. Ah fack.
//LaterGators.