Decisions Decisions
Ok, I have a bit of a dilema. Let me lay this down for you. You see, this coming weekend is Homecoming at UF, and I would love to go, but thats another story. What is important regarding that is that Katie was supposed to go to Gainesville this weekend, which meant I was going to have the weekend free and open, so I made plans.
There's this girl, Amanda, from work, and she and I kind of had an encounter a couple of weeks ago when things with Katie and I were shakey. Anyways, since Kate was going to be gone I asked Amanda to come to the movies with me on Friday. Actually, I asked her to go to the movies with me on Monday because Eric asked me to go to the movies with him and I didn't want to have to go to the movie with him alone (I'm pretty sure he has a crush on me) but Amanda couldn't go because she had to work. I offered to go on Friday, since she and I have Fridays off, and she said she would. I half-thought she was simply agreeing to go to shut me up and she was hoping I would forget to bring it back up later, but yesterday, she actually brings it back up and I got her phone number so now we're going to the movies Friday nite (YAY!) I'm not sure if this is a date as friends or as more, but I'm actually stoked about it. She seems likes a really great girl and I really want to get to know her better. I know what you're thinking, what about Katie? How can you go behind her back and see this other girl? You really are one of those asshole men. BUT, but but but but but but BUT Katie is the one who has been insistant that our relationship doesn't get serious or exclusive, and I am getting kind of tired of waiting for her to come around and say she wants to be serious. Maybe, it's time for me to actually take action to see if I want to be serious with her. I know I used to want that, I'm just not sure about it anymore.
Back to my Dilema, Yesterday, after I had confirmed the movie with Amanda, when I got home from work, I called Katie and she says she cant talk because she is on the phone with Ben (her friend who was going to Gainesville with her) and she probably wont be going to Gainesville this weekend. Anyways, I called her back in 20 minutes, like she had asked, and tells me she wont be going to Gainesville and she'll be going to Swing as usual on Friday nite and of course she expects me to be there. And shes upset because she wont be going to Gainesville, so I can't tell her I wont be going to Swing or that instead I would be going to see a movie with Amanda. Not that I would have told her even if she would still be going to Gainesville. So, now I am faced with a decision as to what I should. I don't think honesty is the way to go, because eventhough she says we aren't serious or exclusive, I know she would be hurt and upset if I were to just tell her I'm going out with someone else on Friday. I can't just call up Amanda and tell her I can't go to the movie. I don't want to pass up this opportunity. I know I can't just carry out my Friday like I had planned prior to learning Kate wasn't going to Gainesville and skip out on Swing. SO, I think that I am going to have to try and accomplish both and go to the movies and to Swing, which will be no easy task. I am thinking, if I can get to the movie with Amanda sometime around 7pm; hopefully, wrap everything up with her by 10pm, that would give me plenty of time to go to swing and appease Katie. I had this overlying dread that somethign like this would happen. My only fear is that Amanda and I wont be able to make the early movie, that would just complicate things. I'm just curious why these kind of things always seem to present themselves to me. I just wish I had the option to spend the entire evening with Amanda if possible.