30 Year Old Me
I've been 30 for a little over a month now, and I gotta tell ya... I really like it. I'm not saying I felt magically different when I turned the big 3-0. It's been a gradual change as I reached the end of my 20s, but being 30 isn't as scary or as old as I once thought when I was younger.
Probably the best part of being 30 is the newfound confidence I have in myself. It started last year, I suppose. I'm definitely not as skinny as I used to be, but I like the way I look. I'm okay with my body, and it's mostly b/c hey, I'm 30. I don't have to look like I'm 20 anymore. Does that even make sense? I feel like the pressure is off for me to be young and hot and sexy b/c I'm not young and hot and sexy. But I do believe I look good. And I can see past my little pudge belly and my pimples and my often frizzy hair and see that, and it's a good feeling. I never had the feeling of being okay with myself, and I like it. I'm not saying that I think I'm hot stuff and that everyone is checking me out. I'm just happy with the way that I am. And I will always be trying to lose weight and wishing that stupid pimple will go away, but it honestly doesn't matter to me either way at this point. I really feel like the main reason I'm gaining confidence in myself is due to my husband who for the last 8 1/2 years has told me every day that I am beautiful. Even when I'm hugely pregnant, he still tells me that and continues to want and love me no matter what. I love him so much.
Another thing I like about being 30 is that I feel like people take 30 year olds a little more seriously than adults in their 20s. The 20s are great, and there's lots of creativity and growth, but I don't know. I have more life experience now. 10 years ago I was still an adult. I have over 10 years of adult experience under my belt now. I still have a long way to go, but I'm definitely smarter than I was 10 years ago.
I also feel like I'm a better version of me than I was 10 years ago. I feel like I'm less judgmental. I'm a more patient mother. I'm a little less selfish. (I'm still working on that one.) I'm slightly more organized. I'm more compassionate. My faith in God has increased. I've done a lot of growing in the last ten years, and I like myself. I have my days of not being okay with me and feeling like no one likes me. Those will probably always happen, but for the most part, I'm okay with ME. I can read stuff I've written in my journal now, and I like that person. I don't so much like the person that was writing 10 years ago. She was selfish and annoying.
I don't write all this to be like, "I'm so awesome. I'm the best person." I just wanted to say that for the first time in my entire life, I'm comfortable with who I am as a person. And that makes me happy. I wonder what I'll be like in 10 more years...
Probably the best part of being 30 is the newfound confidence I have in myself. It started last year, I suppose. I'm definitely not as skinny as I used to be, but I like the way I look. I'm okay with my body, and it's mostly b/c hey, I'm 30. I don't have to look like I'm 20 anymore. Does that even make sense? I feel like the pressure is off for me to be young and hot and sexy b/c I'm not young and hot and sexy. But I do believe I look good. And I can see past my little pudge belly and my pimples and my often frizzy hair and see that, and it's a good feeling. I never had the feeling of being okay with myself, and I like it. I'm not saying that I think I'm hot stuff and that everyone is checking me out. I'm just happy with the way that I am. And I will always be trying to lose weight and wishing that stupid pimple will go away, but it honestly doesn't matter to me either way at this point. I really feel like the main reason I'm gaining confidence in myself is due to my husband who for the last 8 1/2 years has told me every day that I am beautiful. Even when I'm hugely pregnant, he still tells me that and continues to want and love me no matter what. I love him so much.
Another thing I like about being 30 is that I feel like people take 30 year olds a little more seriously than adults in their 20s. The 20s are great, and there's lots of creativity and growth, but I don't know. I have more life experience now. 10 years ago I was still an adult. I have over 10 years of adult experience under my belt now. I still have a long way to go, but I'm definitely smarter than I was 10 years ago.
I also feel like I'm a better version of me than I was 10 years ago. I feel like I'm less judgmental. I'm a more patient mother. I'm a little less selfish. (I'm still working on that one.) I'm slightly more organized. I'm more compassionate. My faith in God has increased. I've done a lot of growing in the last ten years, and I like myself. I have my days of not being okay with me and feeling like no one likes me. Those will probably always happen, but for the most part, I'm okay with ME. I can read stuff I've written in my journal now, and I like that person. I don't so much like the person that was writing 10 years ago. She was selfish and annoying.
I don't write all this to be like, "I'm so awesome. I'm the best person." I just wanted to say that for the first time in my entire life, I'm comfortable with who I am as a person. And that makes me happy. I wonder what I'll be like in 10 more years...