We know drama. AKA meme time!
I hate drama. Not television drama, which I love, because it's not real and it's not happening to me and I can walk away from it at any time. I hate real-life drama, which is harder to escape and leaves me feeling drained and raw and unsteady. I've been dealing with personal drama on several fronts lately and it is exhausting. And what I really
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We don't usually get to see much of the aftermath of Eliot's fights, but you have to imagine that it's pretty rough sometimes. Getting hit in the head as much as he sometimes does isn't something you just get over by taking an aspirin. And we've seen that he doesn't like it when Parker sneaks up on him, even when he's just mildly distracted. So yeah, if he was seriously out of it, like concussion, major pain kind of out of it, and she legitimately startled him, it'd be bad.
And he's so keenly aware of his own potential for violence and works so hard to control it and only use violence as an appropriate response. So if he ever actually hurt someone he cared about by accident there'd be this initial, reflexive burst of anger, but then the shame would be instantaneous and overwhelming.
My husband's actually ... well, he's not Eliot, obviously, but he lifts some pretty serious weights and he was in the army and he's taken krav maga so he's got a little of that potential for violence. And because of that he tries to be extra careful, because he's keenly aware that a careless move from him can do a lot more damage than a careless move from some regular joe. So he's super gentle most of the time, but for some reason (maybe because of his days in the army) he's prone to startling when he's asleep. He doesn't wake up gently. If you accidentally startle him awake he'll wake up lashing out, and it can be shocking because it's so different than how he usually is. So that's kind of what I based Eliot's reaction on, that split second when you don't know what's happening and your instincts kick in and you lose control of the power that's usually held so tightly in check.
But I didn't want Eliot to actually hurt Parker, because that felt like too much. I just wanted him to come within a hair's breadth of seriously hurting her, and I wanted everyone to see him do it and know how close a thing it'd been. Because a near miss is almost worse somehow, and more frightening for everyone. Then it's about the fear of that potential for violence and harm, rather than about the aftermath of it.
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