i'm just a poor boy
Stream of consciousness, readyyyyGO
There are a few really obscure elements of objects and situations and people that really draw me in. I'm unsure as to whether everyone works that way and they just don't say anything about it, or if it's only me and a few others with the same ways of thinking. When people say "there's just something about _____," that means that whoever that person is, they have addictive qualities about them that can't be described, and I think that maybe that's the same thing. That first sentence is true; I am positive that there are very specific things about people that attract me to them but I'm unsure of what they actually are. Lately I've been thinking about that a lot because I've been trying to clear up the mess that comes out when I try and say what I think. I always have a lot going on inside my brain, but more often than not I just have no idea how to express it. It's not due to being shy or being scared of what people would say, it's just that I can't find words to do it justice. Like I said, I've been thinking about it a lot and one of my conclusions is that one of those qualities must be how a person makes me feel. I don't mean "he makes me feel happy" or anything like that, I mean INCREDIBLY specific things, like "something about this person reminds me of the feeling I had at one exact moment in 7th grade at the memorial day parade when I looked at that big white house on the corner of Cherry and Washburn" or wherever that house was. My mind honestly works like that 24/7, with everything.
Someday when I have a lot of time on my hands I'm going to do myself a favor and make a huge photo-journal sort of thing, describing all the major situations things tend to remind me of and also music, feelings, anything I tie into them that I can think of. FOR INSTANCE-I'm listening to my iPod right now since my parents computer doesn't have much music on it, and Jimi Thing by Dave came on. The beginning of that song reminds me of sitting on the floor in my living room almost right in front of the door, facing the stereo speakers. That's the whole memory; a 10 second span and nothing in it is important or significant really but SOMEHOW I remember it like it was 3 minutes ago, and my brain connects other things to it. So I would take a picture of that exact spot that I see in my mind, and write down everything I associate with it.
And I just read that over and realized how COMPLETELY time consuming and pointless that would be, even for my own purposes.
I've had a huge urge to start singing again lately. I plan on doing ACB next semester just for the sake of playing again (other than my lesson) without having to audition or make any real effort lol, and now I think I might do University Chorus or something too. We shall see. Strangely enough, what I would really like to do is gospel singing, even though I don't really like singing about anything related to religion. I just like the power behind people's voices when they sing gospel, and I like the structure of it. It's hard to achieve that feeling when the music doesn't stir something up inside of you. I guess I shouldn't be so particular and just say that I'd like to sing really loud, lol.
I like this semester so far. A lot.
There are a few really obscure elements of objects and situations and people that really draw me in. I'm unsure as to whether everyone works that way and they just don't say anything about it, or if it's only me and a few others with the same ways of thinking. When people say "there's just something about _____," that means that whoever that person is, they have addictive qualities about them that can't be described, and I think that maybe that's the same thing. That first sentence is true; I am positive that there are very specific things about people that attract me to them but I'm unsure of what they actually are. Lately I've been thinking about that a lot because I've been trying to clear up the mess that comes out when I try and say what I think. I always have a lot going on inside my brain, but more often than not I just have no idea how to express it. It's not due to being shy or being scared of what people would say, it's just that I can't find words to do it justice. Like I said, I've been thinking about it a lot and one of my conclusions is that one of those qualities must be how a person makes me feel. I don't mean "he makes me feel happy" or anything like that, I mean INCREDIBLY specific things, like "something about this person reminds me of the feeling I had at one exact moment in 7th grade at the memorial day parade when I looked at that big white house on the corner of Cherry and Washburn" or wherever that house was. My mind honestly works like that 24/7, with everything.
Someday when I have a lot of time on my hands I'm going to do myself a favor and make a huge photo-journal sort of thing, describing all the major situations things tend to remind me of and also music, feelings, anything I tie into them that I can think of. FOR INSTANCE-I'm listening to my iPod right now since my parents computer doesn't have much music on it, and Jimi Thing by Dave came on. The beginning of that song reminds me of sitting on the floor in my living room almost right in front of the door, facing the stereo speakers. That's the whole memory; a 10 second span and nothing in it is important or significant really but SOMEHOW I remember it like it was 3 minutes ago, and my brain connects other things to it. So I would take a picture of that exact spot that I see in my mind, and write down everything I associate with it.
And I just read that over and realized how COMPLETELY time consuming and pointless that would be, even for my own purposes.
I've had a huge urge to start singing again lately. I plan on doing ACB next semester just for the sake of playing again (other than my lesson) without having to audition or make any real effort lol, and now I think I might do University Chorus or something too. We shall see. Strangely enough, what I would really like to do is gospel singing, even though I don't really like singing about anything related to religion. I just like the power behind people's voices when they sing gospel, and I like the structure of it. It's hard to achieve that feeling when the music doesn't stir something up inside of you. I guess I shouldn't be so particular and just say that I'd like to sing really loud, lol.
I like this semester so far. A lot.