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tonight, this man made me feel like life had a purpose again.
i realized tonight as i sang along to the words of the songs i used to blare on my stereo in my bedroom late at night at the age of 10 years old, that the part of me i've been missing for so long hadn't quite so filled as it did then.
i lost so much of my short childhood.
this void i've had inside of me has been nothing but the longing to find my childhood again.
i long to feel 13 years old again.
the confused, scared feelings i had of the things i didn't know yet.
the photos of andy jackson and robert smith hanging on my wall, the idea of going to the mall with friends being the most exciting thing in the world, i don't know.
i am listening to more hot rod circuit than i can handle.
thank you, andy jackson.
you helped me find myself tonight.
i've never felt better.
i feel ready to face life again.