update
i weent on a feild trip today and it was far less than fun. although i did enjoy the pardoning simmulation. oh and the room of the senate. the leather chairs were wonderful.
it was also nice to talk to people that generally i don't really talk to. i'm not sure what thats all about, i'm not intimmidated by my peers and i don't think i'm better than them i just don't really feel a need to ever engage in conversation, this leads to alot of awkward standing around in groups not really feeling a part of it anything, or at least it can lead to that. so i think i'm going to change that, i'm not exactly sure how, its not really a lack of confedence, i can talk to people just fine, perhaps its a weird case of low self eesteme but not really, i don't know i just don't feel like what i have to present is worth while to the people i'm around alot of the time.
so now that i'm loseing my licsense i geuss it will just have to force me to make better friends with people so they can give me a ride home. but really so i can make the most out of my last year of highschool. which is sort of anouther reinforcer that fate in a sense works, like something good coming out of something bad. i'll become a more well rounded person.
i was also thinking how fate or something works today with the haulacaust because if the bible talks about jews being persicuted isn't that the perfect example of a modernish day perseqution of jews? so its sort of stupid and obviose but i thought about that today.
probably, whats happening with me and people or what not is just something that happens as a teenager. but that doesn't really work as an excuse because one has to grow out of it to become an adult right? yeah i think so. i geuss i'll just suck it up, i think it might have to do with changing schools becasue it was never a problem back in middle school, not that that deffines anything.
mmmm i think everyone should read Stranger in a Strange Land its pretty slow but an amazing story with good ideas and such
Late Breaking update
Jeremy Broomfeild is coming to town tommorrow with a friend named Logan to use my house as a cheap motel on their road trip through Maine, he is also joining me on my big self phone getting expenditure, (i wonder if that's the right word) and diner with the one and only Stanton Chase Nichols formerly knowen as Hans.
it was also nice to talk to people that generally i don't really talk to. i'm not sure what thats all about, i'm not intimmidated by my peers and i don't think i'm better than them i just don't really feel a need to ever engage in conversation, this leads to alot of awkward standing around in groups not really feeling a part of it anything, or at least it can lead to that. so i think i'm going to change that, i'm not exactly sure how, its not really a lack of confedence, i can talk to people just fine, perhaps its a weird case of low self eesteme but not really, i don't know i just don't feel like what i have to present is worth while to the people i'm around alot of the time.
so now that i'm loseing my licsense i geuss it will just have to force me to make better friends with people so they can give me a ride home. but really so i can make the most out of my last year of highschool. which is sort of anouther reinforcer that fate in a sense works, like something good coming out of something bad. i'll become a more well rounded person.
i was also thinking how fate or something works today with the haulacaust because if the bible talks about jews being persicuted isn't that the perfect example of a modernish day perseqution of jews? so its sort of stupid and obviose but i thought about that today.
probably, whats happening with me and people or what not is just something that happens as a teenager. but that doesn't really work as an excuse because one has to grow out of it to become an adult right? yeah i think so. i geuss i'll just suck it up, i think it might have to do with changing schools becasue it was never a problem back in middle school, not that that deffines anything.
mmmm i think everyone should read Stranger in a Strange Land its pretty slow but an amazing story with good ideas and such
Late Breaking update
Jeremy Broomfeild is coming to town tommorrow with a friend named Logan to use my house as a cheap motel on their road trip through Maine, he is also joining me on my big self phone getting expenditure, (i wonder if that's the right word) and diner with the one and only Stanton Chase Nichols formerly knowen as Hans.