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ive lost my edge. ive hushed my personality a lot more than i thought in the recent months. i was afraid for awhile that being weird made me an outcast. ive just realized sitting here that being different is what people always liked about me. telling someone something they didnt want to hear, staring at someone when i want to, ignoring someone when they deserve it, and saying things that make no sense and perfect sense at the same time, those are the things that ive let go of lately. im going to bring them back.
im floating here tonight yes, im floating here weightless and couldnt tell you whether im sitting or standing because im in that daze you know, when your eyes close and your body goes numb and you feel that last rush of energy roll down your senses, head to toe, its a freeing feeling like your soul could just leap from you physical jail and sail on forever without limits without boundaries with rules, laws, gravity, i wonder does the night develop me much like polaroids under light if i lay here for an hour will my mind melt away from a central idea that forms the center of my being a molten flow producing the paste that holds me together if i lie here will that formation show through and if so will i see it or do i need it to be you, is that my friend the reason i cannot live alone bc alone i cannot see the reason to live and therefor never live at all
im floating here tonight yes, im floating here weightless and couldnt tell you whether im sitting or standing because im in that daze you know, when your eyes close and your body goes numb and you feel that last rush of energy roll down your senses, head to toe, its a freeing feeling like your soul could just leap from you physical jail and sail on forever without limits without boundaries with rules, laws, gravity, i wonder does the night develop me much like polaroids under light if i lay here for an hour will my mind melt away from a central idea that forms the center of my being a molten flow producing the paste that holds me together if i lie here will that formation show through and if so will i see it or do i need it to be you, is that my friend the reason i cannot live alone bc alone i cannot see the reason to live and therefor never live at all