What someone says
I've noticed more and more that people opinions about certain areas of my life have affect me more than I though. The other day my mom told me that she thought I was getting too serious with AJ considering we have to break up at the end of the summer anyways. At the moment she said it I thought "Whatever, I'm going to do what I want to do." But then, I started thinking about it later. And I've been thinking about it ever since. And the more I think about it, the more I really don't see how she could say that. We've been at the same stage in our relationship for the past 2 -3 months. I don't see how that is getting to serious, or getting to close. Maybe she didn't mean physically. Maybe she was talking about emotionally. I think she can tell that I love him. Or maybe she can tell he loves me. I don't know. I've already fallen and it wouldn't make a difference for my heart if we broke up now or then. It would hurt all the same.
Then, about a week ago I was talking to a girl I knew a while back who had put something about not ever being able to love as her status. I asked her why she couldn't love. And she said that she didn't believe love exsisted because she had been hurt to many times. I actually knew exactly where she was coming from. Like I said in my first post, I didn't think I could ever love. But I am, and I'm being loved back. (Which is awesome.) There are so many people who actually believe that falling in love is impossible. I didn't even realize it. It makes me sad to think that those people will go half their lives without finding love because they will eventually close themselves completely off from any kind of emotional attachment to anyone. It hurt me to think that at one time I was that kind of person. I'm thankful now, I'm thankful for the love I have in my heart. Not only have I experienced the first love/in love "love" but with that love I've seen the love for my family and friends as something more special that I realized. Love is beautiful and wonderful no matter who it's between. And no, I'm not saying that I support homosexuality, I'm talking about friendship and family and boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. They can all be amazing if you just realize that you care about those people.
People all around me say they don't
or can't believe in love because
they've been hurt to many times. That
used to be my excuse too, but
now I pity those people because
even though the journey to love is terribly
awful it is the most beautiful and rewarding
non-tangible thing in existence.
Then, about a week ago I was talking to a girl I knew a while back who had put something about not ever being able to love as her status. I asked her why she couldn't love. And she said that she didn't believe love exsisted because she had been hurt to many times. I actually knew exactly where she was coming from. Like I said in my first post, I didn't think I could ever love. But I am, and I'm being loved back. (Which is awesome.) There are so many people who actually believe that falling in love is impossible. I didn't even realize it. It makes me sad to think that those people will go half their lives without finding love because they will eventually close themselves completely off from any kind of emotional attachment to anyone. It hurt me to think that at one time I was that kind of person. I'm thankful now, I'm thankful for the love I have in my heart. Not only have I experienced the first love/in love "love" but with that love I've seen the love for my family and friends as something more special that I realized. Love is beautiful and wonderful no matter who it's between. And no, I'm not saying that I support homosexuality, I'm talking about friendship and family and boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. They can all be amazing if you just realize that you care about those people.
People all around me say they don't
or can't believe in love because
they've been hurt to many times. That
used to be my excuse too, but
now I pity those people because
even though the journey to love is terribly
awful it is the most beautiful and rewarding
non-tangible thing in existence.