she laughs at my dreams but i dream about her laughter
15 Years Ago, I:
1. was 4
2. playing with my 6 month old sister
3. lived in ohio
4. was carefree
5. cowering from shannon
10 Years Ago, I:
1. was 9
2. was in florida
3. was full of energy
4. was homeschooled
5. lived with my g-rents (i think....)
6. loved tormenting my siblings
5 Years Ago, I:
1. started high school
2. met my best friend in the entire world
3. got boobs
4. put up with sarah sharing my room
5. had my first cigarette
6. was in ROTC....omg, i was a NERD
7. got my first official boyfriend
3 Years Ago, I:
1. met Fen and hated her.....sorry babe!!!
2. realized how much i loved to sing
3. was a junior
4. had lots of issues with Janet and Hannah
5. took lots of slacker classes
6. liked jason pielemeyer!!!
7. met my second best friend in the entire world bc she dated tyler
8. hated my parents and wanted out
2 Years Ago, I:
1. was a senior
2. still had the awesomest friends ever
3. made it into treble choir
4. was told i wasn't gonna graduate
5. had the WORST teacher i've ever had
6. was trying to figure out who i was
7. worked at sears....yuck
8. made lots of other friends
9. went to prom with derrick....we had lotsa fun!
1 Year Ago, I:
1. thought i'd found the perfect guy
2. found out that i still wouldn't graduate bc my counselor sucks
3. was still trying to figure myself out
4. made aeolian at the last minute
5. couldn't wait to get outta school
6. only had 4 classes
7. kinda slipped away from everyone and everything
8. started at the daycare
9. wanted to die
10. fought with my sister over the phone since we dated brothers
11. became closer to both my sisters
6 Months Ago, I:
1. turned 19
2. finally got my own class
3. was still far from my friends and family
4. was in love
5. had pretty much given up on everything
6. fell in love with will and grace
7. got pissed over every little thing
8. went to SYR and made a huge mistake
9. made new friends and missed the ones i had
10. still tried to figure out who i was
11. still wanted out of this house
1 Month Ago, I:
1. still had a boyfriend, haha, sucky as he may have been
2. got back to my friends
3. found out what was most important to me
4. was high on life
5. was really missing my family in FL
6. saw what i thought was love slip through my fingers
7. felt the love and compassion from my friends
8. cried more than i knew i could
9. still didn't know who i was
10. became a toddler teacher
11. started going to college groups, one of the best things in my life
12. started looking for apartments
13. got accused of "pursuing" kurt
14. felt terrible
15. had many thoughts of running home to FL
16. still missed my friends and did everything i could to see them
17. was running out of things to say
18. still didn't know what i was gonna say
19. decided that if he didn't do it, i would
20. was still running out of things to say
21. decided i didn't need him to be happy
22. I DON'T KNOW!!!
2 weeks ago i
1. started looking for a new job
2. realized i didn't need him whatsoever
3. declared my hatred for will
4. was kicked in the butt by my older sister
5. was getting hit on
6. had my first starbucks in a loooong time
7. still missed my FL family
8. fell in love with little Camden...such a cute little girl! 13 months
(within) 1 Week Ago, I:
1. applied for petco
2. talked to shannon on the phone
3. was lectured by jenn
4. was at amy's house watching SWAT
5. still got hit on
6. went to college groups still and loving it
7. got like, 10 new myspace friends
8. found myself
9. bought a really cute new outfit
10. told elizabeth that i'd applied at petco...
11. really don't remember last week
12. realized i need my friends to make me happy, not a guy
13. got fed up with everything
14. felt like my life was going even farther than i thought it could
15. had a breakdown at church
16. realized i should have listened to everyone instead of myself
17. got left at church
18. stressed about everything
19. listened to lots of britney spears
20. was getting infuriated with this silly thing
Yesterday, I:
1. went to an interview at petco and met jesse....whoo!
2. was really excited about my new job
3. held a snake
4. was REALLY nervous
5. almost forgot my shoes at the daycare
6. got off work early
7. called pam and talked to bri and zo
8. was reeeeeally hyper
9. wanted to go celebrate, but had no money
10. tried on about 50 different outfits
11. started my period
12. listened to lots of dixie chicks
13. didn't really do much after my interview
14. watched sisterhood of the traveling pants with rebekah and nicky
Today, I:
1. slept in
2. watched some tv
3. got new pants in the mail
4. went and filled out paperwork at petco
5. flirted with jesse.....not much though....heehee
6. was told i look 24
7. really kinda connected with my new boss
8. went to a yard sale
9. put up some new decorations in my room
10. straightened my hair
11. am really nervous about letting rebekah wear my dress to HC
12. had a puppy sit in my lap while i was reading our "non fraternization policy" (DANGIT!!) lol
Tomorrow, I:
1. will be going to church
2. will be tired
3. am going to be with brianna and zoe
4. am singing i think
5. will be with tina
6. will probably want to be napping
7. will be very happy bc i'll be with my girls!
8. will be happier
9. will listen to my ipod
10. will still wanna go home
My Top 6 Bad Habits:
1. i'm loud
2. immature
3. i'm too guy crazy
4. i'm messy
5. i'm flirty
6. sometimes i'm too open with things....
My Top 10 Biggest Worries at the Moment:
1. how i'm gonna tell them i'm not gonna work there anymore
2. telling daddy i don't wanna go to crown hill anymore
3. that i'm slipping away again
4. never achieving my dreams
5. monday at 5
6. not fitting in at petco, even though i kinda already have
7. life in general
8. the fact that i'm a disappointment to my dad
9. finding my own place
10. getting my own car
My Top 3 Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. PETCO!
2. Friends
3. Destiny's Child
1. was 4
2. playing with my 6 month old sister
3. lived in ohio
4. was carefree
5. cowering from shannon
10 Years Ago, I:
1. was 9
2. was in florida
3. was full of energy
4. was homeschooled
5. lived with my g-rents (i think....)
6. loved tormenting my siblings
5 Years Ago, I:
1. started high school
2. met my best friend in the entire world
3. got boobs
4. put up with sarah sharing my room
5. had my first cigarette
6. was in ROTC....omg, i was a NERD
7. got my first official boyfriend
3 Years Ago, I:
1. met Fen and hated her.....sorry babe!!!
2. realized how much i loved to sing
3. was a junior
4. had lots of issues with Janet and Hannah
5. took lots of slacker classes
6. liked jason pielemeyer!!!
7. met my second best friend in the entire world bc she dated tyler
8. hated my parents and wanted out
2 Years Ago, I:
1. was a senior
2. still had the awesomest friends ever
3. made it into treble choir
4. was told i wasn't gonna graduate
5. had the WORST teacher i've ever had
6. was trying to figure out who i was
7. worked at sears....yuck
8. made lots of other friends
9. went to prom with derrick....we had lotsa fun!
1 Year Ago, I:
1. thought i'd found the perfect guy
2. found out that i still wouldn't graduate bc my counselor sucks
3. was still trying to figure myself out
4. made aeolian at the last minute
5. couldn't wait to get outta school
6. only had 4 classes
7. kinda slipped away from everyone and everything
8. started at the daycare
9. wanted to die
10. fought with my sister over the phone since we dated brothers
11. became closer to both my sisters
6 Months Ago, I:
1. turned 19
2. finally got my own class
3. was still far from my friends and family
4. was in love
5. had pretty much given up on everything
6. fell in love with will and grace
7. got pissed over every little thing
8. went to SYR and made a huge mistake
9. made new friends and missed the ones i had
10. still tried to figure out who i was
11. still wanted out of this house
1 Month Ago, I:
1. still had a boyfriend, haha, sucky as he may have been
2. got back to my friends
3. found out what was most important to me
4. was high on life
5. was really missing my family in FL
6. saw what i thought was love slip through my fingers
7. felt the love and compassion from my friends
8. cried more than i knew i could
9. still didn't know who i was
10. became a toddler teacher
11. started going to college groups, one of the best things in my life
12. started looking for apartments
13. got accused of "pursuing" kurt
14. felt terrible
15. had many thoughts of running home to FL
16. still missed my friends and did everything i could to see them
17. was running out of things to say
18. still didn't know what i was gonna say
19. decided that if he didn't do it, i would
20. was still running out of things to say
21. decided i didn't need him to be happy
22. I DON'T KNOW!!!
2 weeks ago i
1. started looking for a new job
2. realized i didn't need him whatsoever
3. declared my hatred for will
4. was kicked in the butt by my older sister
5. was getting hit on
6. had my first starbucks in a loooong time
7. still missed my FL family
8. fell in love with little Camden...such a cute little girl! 13 months
(within) 1 Week Ago, I:
1. applied for petco
2. talked to shannon on the phone
3. was lectured by jenn
4. was at amy's house watching SWAT
5. still got hit on
6. went to college groups still and loving it
7. got like, 10 new myspace friends
8. found myself
9. bought a really cute new outfit
10. told elizabeth that i'd applied at petco...
11. really don't remember last week
12. realized i need my friends to make me happy, not a guy
13. got fed up with everything
14. felt like my life was going even farther than i thought it could
15. had a breakdown at church
16. realized i should have listened to everyone instead of myself
17. got left at church
18. stressed about everything
19. listened to lots of britney spears
20. was getting infuriated with this silly thing
Yesterday, I:
1. went to an interview at petco and met jesse....whoo!
2. was really excited about my new job
3. held a snake
4. was REALLY nervous
5. almost forgot my shoes at the daycare
6. got off work early
7. called pam and talked to bri and zo
8. was reeeeeally hyper
9. wanted to go celebrate, but had no money
10. tried on about 50 different outfits
11. started my period
12. listened to lots of dixie chicks
13. didn't really do much after my interview
14. watched sisterhood of the traveling pants with rebekah and nicky
Today, I:
1. slept in
2. watched some tv
3. got new pants in the mail
4. went and filled out paperwork at petco
5. flirted with jesse.....not much though....heehee
6. was told i look 24
7. really kinda connected with my new boss
8. went to a yard sale
9. put up some new decorations in my room
10. straightened my hair
11. am really nervous about letting rebekah wear my dress to HC
12. had a puppy sit in my lap while i was reading our "non fraternization policy" (DANGIT!!) lol
Tomorrow, I:
1. will be going to church
2. will be tired
3. am going to be with brianna and zoe
4. am singing i think
5. will be with tina
6. will probably want to be napping
7. will be very happy bc i'll be with my girls!
8. will be happier
9. will listen to my ipod
10. will still wanna go home
My Top 6 Bad Habits:
1. i'm loud
2. immature
3. i'm too guy crazy
4. i'm messy
5. i'm flirty
6. sometimes i'm too open with things....
My Top 10 Biggest Worries at the Moment:
1. how i'm gonna tell them i'm not gonna work there anymore
2. telling daddy i don't wanna go to crown hill anymore
3. that i'm slipping away again
4. never achieving my dreams
5. monday at 5
6. not fitting in at petco, even though i kinda already have
7. life in general
8. the fact that i'm a disappointment to my dad
9. finding my own place
10. getting my own car
My Top 3 Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. PETCO!
2. Friends
3. Destiny's Child