My Life Is Bipolar.
My life is bipolar...up down up down up down....maybe its just addicted to crack or something. Anyway...it's back to being fine again. I hate how it's always okay...then bad...then okay. I know Im partly the reason blah blah blah....moving on...SO...I wrote him this note saying "blah blah...worried....blah...i love you...blah blah tell me you love me one more time and I'll believe you blah blah"...well...tonight he looked at me and was like "Hannah...I love you." Ooo! All seriously and stuff. *sigh* Yeah. Wonderful. See! That's the simple perfection I'm talking about! Still....my life is so bipolar....
Oh. Okay. You know what I hate? HATE like Santa Clause hates the Easter Bunny?! How my happiness is SO dependent on him. Yes...he's supposed to make me happy...and he does....BUT....it's like if he's upset...or even if he's not but I think he is...I'm upset. And I go into one of my "depressed...i need Zoloft" kinda moods...well...Hmm...Im going to work on it. ERGH! He's such a part of my life that it's hard to have fun without him. No...I have fun without him...just not fun fun...er...I dont know how to explain it....speak Hannah and you'll understand.Anyway...Without harming our relationship I'M going to learn how to not be dependent upon him for life...hmm..that sounds like I want to stop loving him. Well...let's see how I put this in English...umm...I just want to learn that if Im not with him that it's okay...that he's not mad at me if he doesnt call me...or that he still loves me if we dont talk for a while...or that I can be happy when I'm out with "the girls". YOu know? Yeah.
GOSH! I LOVE HIM!! I love him more than...than..than...AIR!
Oh. Okay. You know what I hate? HATE like Santa Clause hates the Easter Bunny?! How my happiness is SO dependent on him. Yes...he's supposed to make me happy...and he does....BUT....it's like if he's upset...or even if he's not but I think he is...I'm upset. And I go into one of my "depressed...i need Zoloft" kinda moods...well...Hmm...Im going to work on it. ERGH! He's such a part of my life that it's hard to have fun without him. No...I have fun without him...just not fun fun...er...I dont know how to explain it....speak Hannah and you'll understand.Anyway...Without harming our relationship I'M going to learn how to not be dependent upon him for life...hmm..that sounds like I want to stop loving him. Well...let's see how I put this in English...umm...I just want to learn that if Im not with him that it's okay...that he's not mad at me if he doesnt call me...or that he still loves me if we dont talk for a while...or that I can be happy when I'm out with "the girls". YOu know? Yeah.
GOSH! I LOVE HIM!! I love him more than...than..than...AIR!