...Another day in the life of, well, me!:D
OK... I'm reading this really great book called True Blue, yeah it's a romantic , but I like it so much because I can really relate to it. God, these thoughts keep running through my head, I keep trying to stop them and think about other things but I can't the more I try the worse it gets. It's all old memories and most of them hurt. Some betrayals, and broken promises... I guess the reason why I'm thinking of all these things is because I basically just lost a friendship with a really close person that i've known all my life, literally. It's hard to think I was just trying to help her, keep her from getting hurt, the least I could do. Some people just don't want to accept that help though. Maybe I should have just let her learn her lesson the hard way. After all she's done to me, tried to do to me, I can't even get an "I'm sorry." I might have heard it once, but that's about it. And then tells me that she's gonna bring up all this "dirt" she has on me. I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANY FREAKIN 'DIRT' ON MEYSELF!!! Much less someone else can have any!! Ughhhhh............ I need a hug......
On a better note, I got to see Tay again last night for a while actually. We watched a movie, and then just watched TV. I explained what I had to to him. The words didn't come out like I wanted them to and I kept forgetting what I was going to say and what I had planned to say, but we got most of it cleared up. I guess I was actually a little nervous about it. I'm not sure exactly why either, but it wasn't a bad nervous it was a good nervous..if that makes any sense at all.
Well, i'll quit boring you all...thanks for being a great audience! :D Much love