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Today I had acting in the city for five hours, and then i had an interview with Columbia University for a film they're making on young actors so that was fun.
Acting was pretty emotional today. First I worked on a monologe with this guy Chris, not my boyfriend Chris, one of my friends from acting class. So that was a pretty hard thing because it made me think of a time I had that relates very similar to the topic of the monologe, which is that it feels like people aren't really paying attention to me, and aren't looking at me from inside. Then in our last two hours we worked on our scenes, and I was also partnered with Chris for that one too. That was REALLY hard since it really happened to me in real life, and it was about a fight I had with Colin about our rough break up. And now my playwrite teacher, Ben, wants me to add a second part where they're like laughing together about the old times. That's going to be so emotionally hard to write. To havr to think about all those good times that I know have blocked out of my head from the past, it's going to be rough. But I know that it will be a better piece if I do that, because it'll be more true, and deeper. So I guess, it's worth it.
I was supposed to do something with Chris tonight but he didn't really sound too into it anymore when I talked to him on the phone which is fine with me because we're both exhusted.. it wouldn't have been that much fun.
I watched the UK Tour of Les Miserables. God, it gives me the chills listening to some of those songs. I cried so hard when they played "Fantine's Death" and "Valjein's Death", those two songs are so sad. It made me think so much about all the years in the past and how different my life is now. And how much I miss and regret not doing. I need to seriously take the moment for itself and stop worrying about what will happen after it, because I keep letting things pass me by and I'm sick of it.
Okay that's my ranting for the night.
MUCH<3
Acting was pretty emotional today. First I worked on a monologe with this guy Chris, not my boyfriend Chris, one of my friends from acting class. So that was a pretty hard thing because it made me think of a time I had that relates very similar to the topic of the monologe, which is that it feels like people aren't really paying attention to me, and aren't looking at me from inside. Then in our last two hours we worked on our scenes, and I was also partnered with Chris for that one too. That was REALLY hard since it really happened to me in real life, and it was about a fight I had with Colin about our rough break up. And now my playwrite teacher, Ben, wants me to add a second part where they're like laughing together about the old times. That's going to be so emotionally hard to write. To havr to think about all those good times that I know have blocked out of my head from the past, it's going to be rough. But I know that it will be a better piece if I do that, because it'll be more true, and deeper. So I guess, it's worth it.
I was supposed to do something with Chris tonight but he didn't really sound too into it anymore when I talked to him on the phone which is fine with me because we're both exhusted.. it wouldn't have been that much fun.
I watched the UK Tour of Les Miserables. God, it gives me the chills listening to some of those songs. I cried so hard when they played "Fantine's Death" and "Valjein's Death", those two songs are so sad. It made me think so much about all the years in the past and how different my life is now. And how much I miss and regret not doing. I need to seriously take the moment for itself and stop worrying about what will happen after it, because I keep letting things pass me by and I'm sick of it.
Okay that's my ranting for the night.
MUCH<3