Bittersweet Symphony...

[hannagrrl]

If he stayed, I'd want it to be for me... but if that won't be the case, I'd rather that he goes. Either way... my reasons are purely selfish and I won't deny that, but ultimately, I know that it's his choice to make... I only get to stand by as he makes it. I want the authority, but not the responsibility, which means to me that I have no right in deserving a say. I can't help him decide... he won't let me anyway. And I'm both saddened yet relieved by that truth.
All I can say, definitively, is that I don't want what is not mine to have.
It's the least bit of selflessness that I can offer.
And I stand by that.