Here goes nothing
Ok, here I am again. Not too much to report. My Dad is doing pretty good, I have a shitload of stuff I need to get done for my classes, and I still have a fairly boring personal life.
I've proably said this before, but I wish I knew what people thought. Not so much their every thought, but more what they think and how they feel about me. I don't think it's that I want Everyone to like me, I just would like to know when I'm waisting my time being pleasant. I don't know how many people would actually go through the effort of doing this, but I keep thinking people are being nice, and talking to me when they actually don't like, or can't stand me. I wish people would act how they felt, or that I could be naive/trusting enough to believe the way they act is the way they feel.
I know not many people read this, but if you're reading now I'm going to ask you to do something for me. Whoever you are or however well you know me, tell me exactly what you think of me. I might regret this later, but I want to know the absolute truth. Whatever you say probably won't make me change much, but I want to hear it. The only other thing I ask is that you leave your name or something so I know who you are. There's no need to add to my paranoia by having someone say I'm a complete asshole and not leave a name so I go around wondering if the person I am talking to really hates me. I don't expect too much of a response, and I know I'm not the first to do this, but it's worth a shot.
Even though this might seem to contradict a lot of what I just said, I'll leave with this. It if baffling to me how someone can have so much of an effect on me without them knowing it.
I've proably said this before, but I wish I knew what people thought. Not so much their every thought, but more what they think and how they feel about me. I don't think it's that I want Everyone to like me, I just would like to know when I'm waisting my time being pleasant. I don't know how many people would actually go through the effort of doing this, but I keep thinking people are being nice, and talking to me when they actually don't like, or can't stand me. I wish people would act how they felt, or that I could be naive/trusting enough to believe the way they act is the way they feel.
I know not many people read this, but if you're reading now I'm going to ask you to do something for me. Whoever you are or however well you know me, tell me exactly what you think of me. I might regret this later, but I want to know the absolute truth. Whatever you say probably won't make me change much, but I want to hear it. The only other thing I ask is that you leave your name or something so I know who you are. There's no need to add to my paranoia by having someone say I'm a complete asshole and not leave a name so I go around wondering if the person I am talking to really hates me. I don't expect too much of a response, and I know I'm not the first to do this, but it's worth a shot.
Even though this might seem to contradict a lot of what I just said, I'll leave with this. It if baffling to me how someone can have so much of an effect on me without them knowing it.