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I can't do this any more
he wore an Emerson shirt last night....that was MEAN
on the picture I gave him I wrote: "We've had some good times! Here's to drama - 2 crucifixions, teenage motherhood, child abuse, paralysis and mental illness...all that PLUS drunken cowboys! And here's to leadership - "You know we get nametags, right?" "Yeah but I WANT my name on my shirt." You're effing brilliant and amazingly talented, I wish you all the best. Get filthy rich so I can mooch off you someday(you owe me, being the only drama person I haven't used for an unending free source of cell phones and transportation). Keep in touch - heidizzle@gmail.com AIM: BigDaddyPompous (if you don't have AIM, GET IT)
Feeley thought I was worried about sounding like I only gave him that because I like him, or sounding needy or desperate or whatever. I'm not. I'm worried that this guy who I could have been really good friends with but messed it up because I was scared of him for two and a half years and then when I stopped being scared I apparently couldn't handle any friendliness without reading way too far into it and messing myself up, I'm worried that I'll lose touch with him the same way I'm worried about losing touch with Caitlin and Kelsey and Abigail and Lis. Maybe a little more, I'm not gonna lie.
I don't know...life is confusing right now.
I need out of St. Albans. But I don't need to get away from my friends...I need to get away from four years of emotionally tying myself to the same dead end, away from all the shit I have learned to connect with him.
I also need to stop being so pathetic.
102.3 played some "cheating is a terrible thing" song, then some high school sweethearts spending life together song, then a Sawyer Brown song right in a row. That was MEAN.
Now Batista REALLY wants to play Loretta Lynn, and I think every Loretta song I have is about how cheating is terrible and women who are in love with married men are terrible soulless disgusting whores.
he wore an Emerson shirt last night....that was MEAN
on the picture I gave him I wrote: "We've had some good times! Here's to drama - 2 crucifixions, teenage motherhood, child abuse, paralysis and mental illness...all that PLUS drunken cowboys! And here's to leadership - "You know we get nametags, right?" "Yeah but I WANT my name on my shirt." You're effing brilliant and amazingly talented, I wish you all the best. Get filthy rich so I can mooch off you someday(you owe me, being the only drama person I haven't used for an unending free source of cell phones and transportation). Keep in touch - heidizzle@gmail.com AIM: BigDaddyPompous (if you don't have AIM, GET IT)
Feeley thought I was worried about sounding like I only gave him that because I like him, or sounding needy or desperate or whatever. I'm not. I'm worried that this guy who I could have been really good friends with but messed it up because I was scared of him for two and a half years and then when I stopped being scared I apparently couldn't handle any friendliness without reading way too far into it and messing myself up, I'm worried that I'll lose touch with him the same way I'm worried about losing touch with Caitlin and Kelsey and Abigail and Lis. Maybe a little more, I'm not gonna lie.
I don't know...life is confusing right now.
I need out of St. Albans. But I don't need to get away from my friends...I need to get away from four years of emotionally tying myself to the same dead end, away from all the shit I have learned to connect with him.
I also need to stop being so pathetic.
102.3 played some "cheating is a terrible thing" song, then some high school sweethearts spending life together song, then a Sawyer Brown song right in a row. That was MEAN.
Now Batista REALLY wants to play Loretta Lynn, and I think every Loretta song I have is about how cheating is terrible and women who are in love with married men are terrible soulless disgusting whores.