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my brain isn't functioning right now, at least not very well
part of it is due to lack of sleep(last night when I got home I watched Phantom twice and then Anchorman and didn't go to bed at all) and the fact it's been a long long day(11 hours total in BFA), but part of it is a large part of my brain needs to focus on Brian at the moment and I try to shut that part off from the rest so I don't get annoying
I kissed him at Bobwhite/Comet...it was an accident, and it was just his forehead(he came over to ask me to turn down the volume on something, I turned to answer him and didn't realize how close he was) but I think he thought I did it on purpose or something because he avoided me the rest of the night, wouldn't even make eye contact(he did the same blatantly looking away thing I do to people when I don't want them to talk to me and I want them to KNOW I don't want that).
I'm trying not to blow it out of proportion, part of the reason I'm trying to shut out the part of my brain that wants to think about it, but I don't like being avoided. And I don't like that I made him feel awkward even if it WAS an accident.
I think I need sleep now
part of it is due to lack of sleep(last night when I got home I watched Phantom twice and then Anchorman and didn't go to bed at all) and the fact it's been a long long day(11 hours total in BFA), but part of it is a large part of my brain needs to focus on Brian at the moment and I try to shut that part off from the rest so I don't get annoying
I kissed him at Bobwhite/Comet...it was an accident, and it was just his forehead(he came over to ask me to turn down the volume on something, I turned to answer him and didn't realize how close he was) but I think he thought I did it on purpose or something because he avoided me the rest of the night, wouldn't even make eye contact(he did the same blatantly looking away thing I do to people when I don't want them to talk to me and I want them to KNOW I don't want that).
I'm trying not to blow it out of proportion, part of the reason I'm trying to shut out the part of my brain that wants to think about it, but I don't like being avoided. And I don't like that I made him feel awkward even if it WAS an accident.
I think I need sleep now