wow.
well, this is the same thing on my myspace, but hey, why not?
Well, I did it. After 2 weeks of being bugged by Austen, after a whole bunch of convincing, after all this talk, all this worry, all this thinking, all this anxiety, all this suffering, i went and done it.
I asked her out. yep. i asked her out. after a whole lot of planning, of constantly thinking of what to say, what to do, how to do it, well, i went for it. She kinda implied that i should do it. she was pretending that she didnt know i liked her the whole time, but she knew. and i guess everyone who reads her livejournal, which is a LOT of people, knew too. so she told me to just go ahead, and say my deepest thoughts, just say it out, to come out of my shell. and i did. i was about to over, and austen decides to pick me up off of my seat, which got the domestic god of peace guy (yep, a guy) to yell at him. but I did it.
I was shaking the whole day. every time i even thought about her, which was like, almost constantly, my heart was beating twice as fast.
so I went up to her, and all that planning, all that thinking, all that worrying, all that confusion, went down the drain. it was all for nothing basically, all it did was make me more anxious...
so afterwards, we were just sitting there, red-faced, smiling. it was one of the most akward moments of my life. i had never felt that way before, so much feeling from just sitting there.
but we're both new at this. we have no idea what to do, when to start doing whatever.
its so...weird. and yet, it feels like its the best day of my life.
Well, I did it. After 2 weeks of being bugged by Austen, after a whole bunch of convincing, after all this talk, all this worry, all this thinking, all this anxiety, all this suffering, i went and done it.
I asked her out. yep. i asked her out. after a whole lot of planning, of constantly thinking of what to say, what to do, how to do it, well, i went for it. She kinda implied that i should do it. she was pretending that she didnt know i liked her the whole time, but she knew. and i guess everyone who reads her livejournal, which is a LOT of people, knew too. so she told me to just go ahead, and say my deepest thoughts, just say it out, to come out of my shell. and i did. i was about to over, and austen decides to pick me up off of my seat, which got the domestic god of peace guy (yep, a guy) to yell at him. but I did it.
I was shaking the whole day. every time i even thought about her, which was like, almost constantly, my heart was beating twice as fast.
so I went up to her, and all that planning, all that thinking, all that worrying, all that confusion, went down the drain. it was all for nothing basically, all it did was make me more anxious...
so afterwards, we were just sitting there, red-faced, smiling. it was one of the most akward moments of my life. i had never felt that way before, so much feeling from just sitting there.
but we're both new at this. we have no idea what to do, when to start doing whatever.
its so...weird. and yet, it feels like its the best day of my life.