gaaah
so yah its 4 48 right not in the morning... and i cant sleep... its pretty fucked up i dont sleep really anymore.. and if i do its only for short period of times. I have been going through alot of stress latley.. even the doctor says so :S ... but w,e i dont care.. i wish somtime i could just stay in my bed and never leave. Really though thats unrealistic.. I need to start acting more responsible... i have to get organized and do the shit i need to do. I dont think im going o khs next semester not until me my n my dad n sister move to keswick... we were planning on moving in febuary wich would have worked out perfectly but not my dad decided he wants to move after winter... for what ever reasons :s.. yeah soo i guees i will be going to keswick high next year. I want to graduate in grade 12.. i dont think i will.. but i want to.. i hate that i fucked around when i was younger.. cuz its fucking me up now.. i wish i was one of those kids that stay focused all the time during class.. did their homework... and had their priorities straight... i was a little fucker... in elementary school and in grade 9 and 10. Now im suffering. I need to devolop better skills cuz mine suck * thumbs down * lol. Christmas is coming up...wich is gay.. and depresses me more.. each year i hope my mom might call but she never deas.... hmm and i dont have a job.. no money fucking retarded... im a bum :(... i dont even want anything for christmas.. i dont deserve anything. i want to go snowbaording.. i want it to snow more.. but i dont liek the cold...meh im willing the deal with it. I dont want to grow up :( .. i miss being able to rely on anyone other than myself. I liek being independant... but i wish my mistakes ment as much as when i was a kid... it was okay when i fucked up back then... now if i fuck up it could be my future. i need to stop telling myself there will be other times to do things... i need to realize things should be dealt with now, not another time.
Yeah so last thursday n friday i hung out with jovi it was the shit.. i love hanging out with her.. she owns me. We always have soo many laughs when were together..." i think the army in my brain is getting shot by a dinasour " " ye ye ye WHAT IF GOD WAS ONE OF US " " rose is such a bitch shes getting mad becuase jack is dying " " samplop plop " HAHAHAH oh god sooo much randomness.. we defintly have to do that again... cuz i havent laughed that hard in sooo long haa.
then friday night everything got fucked up.. i dont want to go into .. thinking about it makes me fucking pissed.
i hope i dont have to go to school tomorow.. im not up for it.. and yah.. i dont wanna go .
i went to taco bell on the weekend.. and got the thing... it like folds.. its on all the commercials.. and
OMGZ..... its the fucking best thing i have ever tasted.. liek really im happy its in newmarket
or else
i would eat it
every
single
day
ahahaha fattie lmao anyways ... im going to try n find somthing else to amuse me .
bye<3
Yeah so last thursday n friday i hung out with jovi it was the shit.. i love hanging out with her.. she owns me. We always have soo many laughs when were together..." i think the army in my brain is getting shot by a dinasour " " ye ye ye WHAT IF GOD WAS ONE OF US " " rose is such a bitch shes getting mad becuase jack is dying " " samplop plop " HAHAHAH oh god sooo much randomness.. we defintly have to do that again... cuz i havent laughed that hard in sooo long haa.
then friday night everything got fucked up.. i dont want to go into .. thinking about it makes me fucking pissed.
i hope i dont have to go to school tomorow.. im not up for it.. and yah.. i dont wanna go .
i went to taco bell on the weekend.. and got the thing... it like folds.. its on all the commercials.. and
OMGZ..... its the fucking best thing i have ever tasted.. liek really im happy its in newmarket
or else
i would eat it
every
single
day
ahahaha fattie lmao anyways ... im going to try n find somthing else to amuse me .
bye<3